edward fox's reality

Randy and Dillon are the new couple, after Randy decided to say he loved me, then charged up ~$107 on my Speedpass account, and only returned my phone without a charger. Perhaps others out there can learn from people who accept those who have acted this immaturely, and can make those who have wronged others financially and emotionally to stop and think at least a few more seconds before they fuck over someone else’s life without any consideration for the consequences to them, or your own ethics, morals, and way of life.

Make Note: I would have written this directly to Randy if he had not immediately deleted me from his friends list and blocked me, and disabled messages from users who are not your friend on your account. Dillon was considerate enough to make an initial attempt to work with me and I am appreciative. Back to the letter…

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I’d appreciate it if you forwarded this on to Randy. I would also appreciate it if you would tell him that it would seem like a decent thing to do to at least give me back my charger since it was mine anyway. The other part was me being trusting of someone and being gullible, and that’s on me. But the other part isn’t… so if you could forward it, I’d be grateful.

I know I might seem like I’m pathetic and have no life to be writing something like this, but I just know that Randy will continue to take advantage of anyone who’s dumb enough like me to be generous enough…

I just called him and he was with his friend, and it sucks because when I asked him about it, he just hung up. I just think that’s a shitty way of dealing with things… to just ignore them… especially when you know you did something wrong, whether the other person was willing at the time or not. I was willing but unknowing of what he was going to do to me.

I called back and his friend answered the phone. It sucks when people are immature enough to stand up for their friends, even when they know they did something wrong.

When did you change your mind about helping me? It’s sad because if Randy had gotten rid of you for me, I would have pushed through to it until he did give you the money, or I would have given you at least some of the money myself, in which case he probably would have screwed me over as well… Hrm.

Anyway. I wish you wouldn’t have changed your mind… there’s a laundry list of people that owe me money… it’s really sad. You think I’d learn, right? I’m not trying to tell you what you did was wrong. It’s just that so many people say they’ll help me but they don’t. They just stop caring. It’s unfortunate. I understand if you still don’t want to help me. If you still think he’s all kinds of great and amazing, congratulations. I’m sorry, but I’ve dated quite a few people and heard a lot of stories, and I just want you to know what’s going on at all times with him, okay? Yeah sure, I don’t really know you, which is lame because if he didn’t act interested in me then I’m sure we could’ve been decent friends. Don’t be dumb like me and trust him. He’s honestly messed up me wanting to be in a relationship with any other guy. I’m not going to be. I’m just waiting until my ex James moves over here in a year or two. I’m in no hurry. I won’t be screwed over again and again. Poor me, right? I’m content, knowing I’ll be with someone who has no heartbreaking acts in the past. I’m not talking about me- my heart was hardly damaged. I just care more about the money and the charger. I’m glad he finally has a job. Now he can finally stop asking everyone for gas. Does he ask you for gas? You’re only 16- I seriously hope he doesn’t.

I look out for other people too much. It makes me look insecure and ruins my social abilities, despite what I try to do. That’s okay, though. I do give amazing advice, and I’m not biased. If he did this to anyone else besides me, I would tell you the same thing. I am sure he can’t really take advantage of you much since you most likely don’t have a job. You don’t have a car and you can’t drive, so he can’t use you there. It’s okay, though, because I know I will make more money soon. I just got a $3 raise at work per hour, and that will offset the actions of people like Randy, and how they have taken advantage of me so many times.

I always write a lot, so don’t think this is some immensely important issue to me.

If you just ignore me, that’s fine, but I discourage you from doing so. People never change, okay? If you’re a better person than me, and if you always stop him from doing what he did to me, more power than you, but is it really right to be with someone like that? I don’t think so. Just be careful.

If you could just ask him to perhaps send me at least part of it, I would be greatly appreciative. I am having to find my own apartment pretty soon and I know shit’s not going to be cheap. We all have bills to pay. It sucks that his friend said, “Why did you give him your Speedpass anyway?”… she knows what kind of person he is, and I hope you do, too. They asked if Adrian had paid me back and they laughed, saying that he just used me for my money, as if Randy did anything different. It sucks that people think they are better than other people who pull the exact same sad crime on someone. It really is sad…

[And since you are forwarding this...]

Randy, if you don’t decide to give me my money, I’ll be unhappy. Do you care? I hope you do. I’m another human being. If we didn’t have any other humans, our life would be pretty dull. We also don’t know how it will come back at us in the future. Are you a fan of karma? It doesn’t seem like you are. I would have rather been beat up and forced to fuck a guy than have my money silently stolen from me. What you did was essentially slip 5 20′s out of my wallet while I was asleep, and while you were saying you were ‘too tired’ to hang out and ‘sick’ you were finding another boy to fall in love with. Is that the kind of person you want to be? I hope not. You are extremely dishonest. I am, too, but I will not ruin other people’s ability to be happy with their own lives as you do. Just think about it.

The message you sent me about how you left my “shit” in my “fucking mailbox”… as if I did something wrong was uncalled for. Seriously, dude.

You are over twenty years old. See that? 2-0. Not 1-6. Not even 1-9. 2-0.

You are officially no longer a teenager (since that goes up to age 19). You are an adult, and you can’t support yourself. You take advantage of people like you’re a poor woman who wants to leech off a rich man. Is that honestly how you want to be represented to yourself and other people? Is that honestly who you are? Seriously — please ignore what your brain is telling you about how you should hate me, and just ask your heart if that’s the kind of person you want to be. I hope you have goals about making a lot of money so that you don’t have the desire (or have) to do this again. It is really unbecoming. Please be very appreciative of Dillon. He is very generous to overlook your past mistakes, and I admire him for that. Whatever he does as far as not helping me is on his part, but I understand that views change and he has his own right to that. There’s no crime against changing an opinion.

I’m sure it will seem insignificant now, but things can always escalate quickly… believe me, I know. I’ve done what you did. It wasn’t to any people individually, but rather to large banks and credit card companies. I won’t go there, though. Just be appreciative of who you are with, because if I knew that the person I was dating…

…well, this isn’t about me. I’m not here to preach my opinions about how you should do things. I am simply here to offer a resolution of sorts.

If Randy is still more immature than you (Dillon) and is unwilling to respond like an adult, then just don’t bother. I would appreciate it, though, if you acted your age and attempted to work with me on this. We could be great friends, honestly. I am extremely forgiving.

Just be careful- both of you. You never know what will happen if you continue with the actions you’ve taken before.