Time: As Vicious as Death.
Elizabeth Forsythe Hailey once said, “Time is a cruel thief to rob us of our former selves. We lose as much to life as we do to death.”
If I was to hate time ever, this would definitely be one of the best moments to do so.
I’ve lost a lot. I’ve lost a lot of important people. They’ve left my life for reasons unbenknownst to me. And, I hate to say it, but, I miss the past… I really do.
“Time is the school in which we learn, time is the fire in which we burn.” – Delmore Schwartz
I’ve gained a lot, but I’ve lost a lot as well. I’ve been disappointed with the major life paths I have chosen. I’ve messed up… and I am not happy about it.
Hopefully I’ll fix it all with time.
Damn, where did the time go?…
(Whisper) ahh what the fuck I just rambled on and on about this post and how I thought we were all shedding and molting the things we had to lose or don’t like in order to reach that point of perfection in the end, where we are content with what we have and what was salvaged. Gahh… all because I didn’t enter the necessary fields, I came back and lost the post. Damn. Anyway… to sum it all up, I guess I hope you don’t dwell on your mistakes too much, because like I said, we had to make those mistakes to reach the end product, miss out on the opportunities. We have to slowly lose what we’ve seemingly gained to get to perfection, which lies way way deep within. *gasp*
ahh.. I hate trying to remember what I typed and trying to retype it… oh yeah, and all too often like gives us the good, and we think, all right, things are going my way, but funny how it was all just accumilating to come crashign down in one big fuck-sum, and we’re left with nothing or back where we started.
ahhh… damn, but again, don’t dwell on the mistakes because they were made for a purpose, to bring out the best in you. We shine brightest when we really have to make a huge effort to put our best foot forward and push on, we don’t realize it at first or how strong we were actually being, but it will pay off.
hmm what else.. oh yeah, and I made captain! so yeah, I’m generally excited, I guess, first camp on the 29th. Thanks again for helping me out and being so generous with your time, I know you didn’t have to do all that checking but I think the essay had a lot to do with it. heh, amazing what you can accomplish in one hour?! psh.
But uh… yeah, I’m still kicking myself in the ass for losing my cell. Now I am typing and all but I can’t get a reply. I guess I hope you just enjoy recieving and reading these messages just to know I’m here keeping you posted and all that.
Hmm… but I do wish we could talk about the way you were feeling. Darn. Take careee.