Do you like how I got straight to the point there? Well, even though I did, I chose a word that most people (including myself until ten minutes ago) aren’t familiar with: inutile. Sounds like futile, or… ceramic tile. But that’s beyond the point. The point is that I feel useless and it really, really sucks.
For the moment, I really have no close friends. I used to have just the right number of friends, but now, it feels like I have no one that I can share my most pathetic feelings with, and it hurts.
I don’t know why it hurts. Perhaps, as James told me, we are supposed to keep our sadness to ourselves. I’m not exactly sure on that one, but all I know is that this sadness is really getting to me. Maybe I’ll get some help for it around 3:30PM today. We’ll see, we’ll see…
Thank you for being here for me…
For those who aren’t here for me, but want to be… thank you.
For those who are temporarily not part of my life right now, you’re still in my thoughts. Don’t forget that.
Life is just so difficult sometimes. Why does it have to be? I thought life would get easier as you learned more. Ignorance is still Ace. Dammit.
May 9th, 2007 at 9:28 am - Edit
yeah, so, this is a really old post, obviously, but I feel like typing. Well, first I felt like emailing you but emailing is disabled on these computers here, so I figured I’d send a little bit to your blog instead. Uhmmmm. No cell phone, either, otherwise I’d text. I’m sorry I didn’t text or call when you asked, that was stupid of me. I wish I didn’t wait until I lost the damn thing, heheh. Oh well. Any way, hope everything is gravy and you’re okay. I guess I’ll just randomely drop in when I can! The lack of a PC or laptop makes that really hard… take care. Visitors should be able to leave comments private from others, btw. Hmmm. That stinks.