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Agendas and Realities.

This is from yesterday’s post:

Tomorrow’s Agenda:
+5AM: Wake up
+540: Leave House
+600: Arrive; Take Test
+80?: Be done? Ha…
+90?: Maybe…
+10?: Hopefully.
+Mid: Eat; Buy clothes for interview. (Mid=Midday/12-ish)
+5PM: Leave to Sears [Carpenter Fwy]
+530: Begin Interview.
+630: Home Sweet Home.

Planning Doesn’t Preserve. Let’s Watch All My Plans Go To Hell! :P

Let’s describe how my plans actually went:
Today’s Agenda:
+5AM: Wake up (wow, got one right!)
+550: Leave House (10 Mins Later… that’s OK.)
+600: Arrive (Take test? HA! They open at 7:30.)
+800: Find out that you cannot take the test because a) You do not have your Social Security Number (or card) with you, b) You haven’t taken the written test yet, c) You haven’t filled out the application yet, d) You don’t have the Receipt for payment of the Driving Fee.
+900: Wait for Friend to Finish up to take him home; he failed his test. Sucked at parellel parking.
+10A: Depart to go to the Social Security Administration Office.
+1030: Arrive, get papers. There are only two people in line, and two windows open (woot!)
11A: Back to the DPS.
1130: Arrive at the DPS; “This isn’t what you need! It doesn’t say your social security number! You need a paper stating your nmber with your name, not just something that says you will get it in the mail in two weeks!” Go back where you came from. Step, Revert!
1145: Back to the Social Security Administration Office. There is now a line of 20+ people, and 2 windows open. We wait, for an hour, just to get a printout that takes 30 seconds. [Un-woot, indeed.]
1PM: We arrive back at the DPS where I turn in all my needed papers; woot for me. I wait about 45 minutes then take the Written Test. I make an 88%, even though I missed any question I had related to drinking and driving… but this is Texas; Who cares?!
230: Finally leave.
300: Pick up Chinese Food!
330: Home Sweet Home.
400: Find out that the Sear’s I am going to go to a job interview for is too far (and “too full of black people”); I call, let the phnoe ring 200 times [literally] to know I won’t be able to make it, and give up.
410: I am asleep.
[I know this isn't relevant, but...]
Sometime While Sleeping: I dreamed about Chris and how I tried to be his friend again, and it didn’t work because I said what I did was unforgivable and such. Am I just getting around to processing that?
+630: Still @ Home Sweet Home.

I am definitely still on for the Best Buy interview tomorrow! Hawt indeed… And, that’s why I don’t plan ahead.

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 14, 2005
At 8:18 pm
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Too Personal?… Nah.

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Rated TV-14 for Mature Language. Reality.

Good Stuff. Eh?! =P

I was thinking, is it possible for me to get too personal with one of these entries? Isn’t that how I always am? Yet I always seem to show it in a way that makes it publicly presentable!

Without further ado, let’s get to all the ups my week has had! Amazingly, through this entire week, nothing negative has happened. If some of you already know more personal things than I care to mention on this blog, you’re probably more surprised than most, but allow me to explain. Everyone should get the point by the time I am done.

I don’t know what I’m doing up. I found a few new motives to finish this entry. So, let’s go.

I watched this special about cell phone users, and how we’ve all become a more distant world while trying to remain connected. Though I’ve known this for years, it seems many people don’t really understand the concept that technology is pulling us apart– with some exceptions.

When we see people talking on their cell phones, we always wonder what they’re saying. That’s because this is our key element of communication. When we hear something we like, or don’t like, we have a tendency to respond to it… However, when half the population is on their cell phone, we don’t have the chance to respond [if we don't know or even if we do know the person] to what they are saying because we’re hearing only half of the conversation, leaving a lot in the air as to what is really being said.

It’s unfortunate that many of us think that by having a cell phone, we’ll gain popularity, or be able to interact with more people, when in reality, plans with more and more minutes just give us a way out of having good face-to-face time with people, and ‘connecting’ us more is just a bland (and horrid) substitute for actual physical interaction.

I thought about getting a cell phone jammer… and I will, but look out! The FCC is watching:

The FCC states the following: “The operation of transmitters designed to jam or block wireless communications is a violation of the Communications Act of 1934, as amended (“Act”). See 47 U.S.C. Sections 301, 302a, 333. The Act prohibits any person from willfully or maliciously interfering with the radio communications of any station licensed or authorized under the Act or operated by the U.S. government. 47 U.S.C. Section 333. The manufacture, importation, sale or offer for sale, including advertising, of devices designed to block or jam wireless transmissions is prohibited. 47 U.S.C. Section 302a(b). Parties in violation of these provisions may be subject to the penalties set out in 47 U.S.C. Sections 501-510. Fines for a first offense can range as high as $11,000 for each violation or imprisonment for up to one year, and the device used may also be seized and forfeited to the U.S. government.” link

Lol. They’ve never charged anyone with this crime… It’s pretty hard to find out if someone’s doing this, by the way, and even though they’re illegal in the US [to buy], majority of sales is generated by the United States. Great indeed! Prices range from $200 and beyond.

Aside from that, however, you can get brain cancer! Mmm, Sexy indeed.

I’m going to ramble a bit about what all has happened this week. You’re going to love hearing about it, and some of it precedes my previous blog post(s), so on with the show!

[Some parts of this post have been pasted from AIM conversations since I have provided an immense quantity of details to specific parties about certain situations, eliminating the need for me to retype all of the text.]

Today was, by far, one of my best feel-good days of the year. Everything went my way, except for the following:
+Didn’t feel like eating dinner.
+Cut myself shaving in 4 places (including my nose… 2nd time this has happened the night of a concert…)

I just rambled my heart out to someone, so I’ll do it to my Binary web server. (Is it binary? Eh, who cares?! It is if I say it is.)

So, my day (and evening, and night) was pretty amazing on Thursday. I honestly had no complaints. I had to do a concert tonight, and, whoa. There was this amazing bass player. He goes to MacArthur, I believe (for the record). He went all the way to All-State… If you would’ve seen how much he shifted on his solo– It was just mind-blowingly amazing.What’s additionally interesting is, I got to use the F-word to someone in an incredibly ecstatic tone. I’ve never had a chance to do that…

Normally when we use profanity, it’s to express disgust (etc.) with something. [That's how I use it, shit!] Anyway, after hearing the solo (and during), I wanted to slit my wrists. Not in some depressing way, since slitting wrists is normally used as as negative connotation to something. I just wish I would be able to play better with my instrument. I play Violin, in case you didn’t know. Last week, in my Orchestra class at Nimitz, we traded instruments and learned to play a new instrument (if you can call that learning). Regardless, I chose the bass, and didn’t realize it was such a pain to play. It’s actually an incredible challenge. Basses (or as they are more professionally referred to, the “Double bass”) are the largest instruments in any Orchestra, producing the deep sounds you hear but don’t realize you are hearing.

His solo was a very nice movement from [some artist... I should know this. So much for Music Theory! X_X] meant for a violin. Since basses produce such low pitches, a piano was brought in to accompany him. What’s amazing was, out of the five soloists that evening, he was the only one to memorize his music–very impressive. So when he was done, I tapped him on his shoulder and was like, “You don’t know me, but that was fucking awesome.”

A brief lesson on my speaking:
1) I don’t say “fucking” at random…
2) I never say “fucking” aloud to someone
3) I don’t say “Awesome” unless I really mean it [and I did!]
My response, further, was: Holy crap, that shifting was amazing. I mean… I can barely shift on my own instrument and it’s way smaller and I told him that we had switched instruments in orchestra this week, and that I played bass, and that my fingers were killing me. He said that he “could have done better”… HA! I replied with “You could’ve done hella worse… you could have been me!”And then finally I said, “So yeah, just thought I’d let you know that” and he said, “Thanks dude”… If only all people were as cool as that.

When the concert finished, two hours later, I went to the rehearsal room where a few nifty things happened.
1) I gave this girl my number. I heard [word] that she thought I was “hott” so I decided to try that out…
2) I saw this guy that looked cool… He kicked a piece of pizza to me, and I kicked it back, so that kept us [+one more guy] entertained for a few minutes… Yeah, somehow I’m going to talk to that guy again. Somehow… Maybe through #1? (;

In a hilarious Memo that ACAD[emy] sent me, I was being notified that I was in *DANGER* of failing a REQUIRED COURSE to GRADUATE! OH MY! Call the Counselors! Call Mommy! I’m in DANGER! Notice my Averages:
A A B C F… Uhh… That doesn’t look like “DANGER” to me. (C was Exam…) Regardless, it was something worth looking at to entertain me for a few minutes.

So back to that guy (who I don’t know his name…) and will, eventually. As I was walking out, I took a pizza box [with pizza in it! Leftovers from earlier] and was about to leave when he pulled on it and tried to take it away. I eventually was like “Here, have it!” and he didn’t want it… Lmao. That’s so a personal note, not meant for you guys to understand.

http://www.bluefly.com/pages/products/detail.jsp?PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=2001892837&FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2289409&N=971+4294967270&Ne=10&Ns=Popularity%7c0%7c%7cProduct%2bCode%7c1&Nu=Product+ID
Why? Well…

It’s purdy.

Also, I have a JOB INTERVIEW tomorrow… after my driving test.

This week is incredibly busy for me. Spring Break is lost in translation. Here’s my Agenda for Monday, pulled right from my AIM away message!

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Tomorrow’s Agenda:
+5AM: Wake up
+540: Leave House
+600: Arrive; Take Test
+80?: Be done? Ha…
+90?: Maybe…
+10?: Hopefully.
+Mid: Eat; Buy clothes for interview.
+5PM: Leave to Sears [Carpenter Fwy]
+530: Begin Interview.
+630: Home Sweet Home.

Planning Doesn’t Preserve. Let’s Watch All My Plans Go To Hell! :P

Notes:
[Mid=Midday]
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Aside from that, Best Buy called me on Saturday and did a brief 10-Question Phone Interview. I did well enough that they’ve called me in for further scrutinizing–errr, interviewing, since I must have given decent answers on the phone. I even got the manager to say “cool”– I don’t think most people have the ability to warm up to someone that fast, eh? Regardless, that interview is at 4PM on Tuesday. Much luck in both departments… [Though I want Best Buy over the other one, Sears, as a Loss Prevention Manager. They probably won't like me anyway.]

I’m proud of myself. I’ve gotten rid of the people I don’t like, which I believe were holding me back from being a nicer person.

On Friday, excluding one faggot (literally! First and last sexual slur, I promise!), I was extra-respectful to everyone. I had my water bottle at hand, which eased the situation. You see, every time I wanted to insult someone, or say something negative, I drank from the water bottle. Sad that I had to refill it 3 times within a 40-Minute period, but who cares? It worked, and unlike before, I didn’t feel crappy; I realized I could actually carry on a conversation! Amazing…

To keep me happy, though, I needed to get rid of everyone that made me argue with them on a regular basis. And so it was done.

Moving right along…

I’m proud to announce that I’ve finally bought my headphones. Have a picture of my invoice!

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1: MDR-V300

2: MDR-V150

I’ll order a Y-Splitter soon enough…

[All images below can be enlarged with exception to the "DR" Logo--just click on them.]

Here are some reference images; you can see the bass player (medium-dark Hispanic guy) in these shots taken from the District’s Newsletter:
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DR pwns!
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For the latest records, albums, etc [on vinyl, mostly]… www.dancerecords.com owns all. Whoo!

Finally, a final departing thought for Chris.

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[He deleted my comments; silly person.]
Chris’ Xanga: xanga/ht_one

That’s all I have time for tonight… Just thought I’d update you, and keep you entertained.

Continuing to Work on Respect and Niceness,
F. Szczepanski

Screw the past, Done with it. Don’t Mess with It. :D

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Woot.

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Rated TV-PG for Mature Language References.

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More fun Stuff!
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I’ll tell about this past week in my next blog post… Within a day. =)

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 12, 2005
At 11:29 pm
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God and Me.

I know that some of you may actually agree with the following media, or disagree; it’s up to you. I agree with all of it, and if it really is an interview in God, then it’s a heavenly good thing that I see all the points as accurate… which I rarely do with anything =P

What link? This link:
http://www.reata.org/interview2.html

Check that out; That’s the English version. If you visit the index, you can check out the other languages.

Since I can type so fast (or at least I think I can =P) I decided to transcribe everything in the presentation, just in case you want to re-read it because it went by too fast, want to copy/paste it somewhere, or simply not load the flash at all and just read on.

Without Further Ado.

Title: Interview with God

I dreamed I had an Interview with God.

“So you would like to interview me?”, God asked.

“If you have the time”, I said.

God smiled. “My time is eternity. What questions do you have in mind for me?”

“What surprises you most about mankind?”

God answered…

“That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again. That they lose their health to make money, and then lose their money to restore their health. That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget about the present, such that they live in neither the present not the future. That they live as if they will never die, and die as if they had never lived.”

God’s hand took mine, and we were silent for awhile. And then I asked… “As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons you want your children to learn?” God replied with a smile.

“To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is let themselves be loved. To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least. To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and it takes many years to heal them. To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness. To learn that there are persons who love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings. To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently. To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they must forgive themselves. And to learn that I am here, always.”

I thought that was a pretty deep analysis, but if the interview was true… Well, enough said.

I think I’ll make a semi-mellow entry for tonight. I’ve been relaxing slightly more, with certain people. Progress doesn’t come immediately. Bad habits are harder to break than good ones. But why? It seems that the only reason I cannot progress to good in my life is because of bad. Not to say my life is bad; I appreciate it thoroughly. There are just certain attributes about my own life that sometimes make it difficult to live, and I know that there are at least five people out there that know what I’m saying because I’ve told them, or because you’ve gone through something similar.

So what to do? What to do… I’m going to ramble here and talk to myself, and think while typing. I haven’t had a genuine “thinking” session (or rambling, if you want to call it that), so I shall make my way down the path that I’ve made for myself with a few turns along the way; possibly in a different direction. Well, since I don’t know what direction(s) I will be going in, I assume that I will be taking different directions! The question is, will any of them be the right one?…

Certainly. I think that any decision that people make, while thinking ahead of time, is the best path that they could have chosen at that time. This means that you shouldn’t ever really regret how you’ve felt, or what you’ve done; If you really feel bad, don’t do it again. Open/Shut case. Ta-da! If only it were that easy.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried being nicer. (No, the previous part of this entry isn’t about that =P) It’s not like I want to be a mean person, but it’s a deadly mix between Right and “Right”. In the Right part of my brain (not, literally… but, the one that says “This is right, not wrong; the kind without the ‘quotes’”), I feel that I should correct people. Do I get annoyed when people do it with me? It depends on who they are. A lot of people think that I exclude my self from my thinking and treatment patterns. This is certainly not the case. If you lived in my brain, you would receive equal treatment, which is sometimes something people don’t like about me. You’ll all be treated the same, until you prove yourself to be superior, inferior, or insult me. Usually the last two go hand in hand, but that’s just with experience.

I’ve been painfully distracted by other’s problems, so I’m going to have to cut this one short…

I really need to work on how I treat people… but that means that they should work on how they’re treating me too, right? Let’s hope…

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 9, 2005
At 8:04 pm
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Aww, Poor You, Having to Read all This.

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Rated TV-PG for Suggestive Dialoge. Mild Language. Mature Content. Reality.

I’m entirely too lazy to update this thing which I call my blog; Not many things have happened, but there are a few things that I want to laugh at.

Note: I own stock in Sirius and have Sirius Satellite Radio service. This does not bias the following statements/opinions. No facts are guaranteed to be accurate past the date of their posting.

I’ve checked up on XM and Sirius Satellite Radio companies, because, well, that’s just something I like doing. Everytime a new year approaches, it seems that XM imitates Sirius even more. One I saw from a huge distance was the fact that XM was going to raise its prices. Why? Let’s explain…

XM had originally put commercials on their broadcasting. Who the hell was insane enough to allow that? Putting commercials on something you were paying $10 a month for? That’s crap, in my opinion. Not all stations had this– only certain ones, but still. There was between 1-3 minutes of commercials. So how could XM afford to keep prices lower when Sirius has consistently charged $12.95 per month for their service (for the main receiver in an account)? Well, truth be told, once they got rid of the commercials (an imitation of SIRIUS?…) their profit margin decreased dramatically. The difference was made with those 1-3 minutes osf commercials per hour, and with those cut, no longer were millions being made per each juicy, yet aggravating [for consumers], minute of broadcasting. XM was scrambling to gain customers back, even though they had a 2-year head start.

Fine, said sorry-ass XM execs… Err, non-biased… XM came up with the idea (*cough* bull *cough*) that it would be best for the consumer’s listening experience to eliminate the small amount of broadcasting that told you about how to regrow hair in places you didn’t want, or how to lose those extra pounds that you know you could never lose unless you went on an exercise program (which is FREE, by the way…). Yes, XM came up with this idea all on their own. Such large brains for a large company.

Then Premium Channels. For those lonely guys that just need a boner any hour of the day, you could’ve bought the “Playboy Radio” station for a nominal fee of around $3.00. Anyone willing to pay $3 a month, to hear, women, moan, on the radio, is just too pathetic to be subscribing to such beautiful digital-quality service, which is what XM and Sirius provide. A new premium service that XM recently had offered (recently is a relative term) was the Opie and Anthony Show.

:Record Scratch:

Hold it… Opie and Anthony? But wait! :Gasp: Who is SIRIUS getting in January 2006? Could it be, the man who has been fined more than any other individual in the FCC’s History– Howard Stern? I guess XM always imitates. But that’s not all!

Since the margin of loss was so great, XM will be raising its price to be dead-even with that of competitor SIRIUS’; Also gone will be the “Premium” rates of Premium channels–they’ll be tossed in as a “Bonus”; Horny poor men (and lesbians) rejoice everywhere.

All this imitation stuff that you’re talking is nonsense!, the fellow XM Follower may say. Fine, have more statistics to cram down your throat:
XM used to have two Satellites orbiting the Earth when SIRIUS has had three all along. Guess who has three satellites as well now? (Since about 2-3 weeks ago…)

XM used to charge people for their online radio service while SIRIUS’ service has been free to subscribers all along. Guess who, along with their newest rate hike to match SIRIUS’, will be providing free radio to their subscribers online as well.

This doesn’t mean I hate XM; this doesn’t mean I love SIRIUS. This simply means that one company got it right the first time, and seems to continue to be doing so. Winning 5 out of 7 Possible Awards for Satellite Radio, ranging from Programming, to Creativity, to Variety, SIRIUS scored high with the critics. Perhaps it’s because most reviewers were older who knew what good music was.

XM’s lineup is mostly crap, serving the youth a variety of hip-hop and R&B nonsense, along with many pop stations. One thing I did love about XM’s lineup was their Alternative selection… and, SIRIUS still needs to work on their Pop and Electronica lineups. They’ve done a great job categorizing the music, but… I think they need a Mix station and a “New Discovery” station for music from most genres (excluding R&B, PLEASE!) to mix; I’d appreciate that.

That’s enough for Satellite Radio for today.

I’ve been trying to find someone to go out with; Guy or girl, come satisfy me. I found a few hot people that I’m trying to hit up on, so we’ll see how that works out.

If the deal with one person doesn’t close, we could be in for a mess…

I need new headphones, since someone stole my old ones. Or I misplaced them. This would be the 8th pair I’ve had to purchase since the start of my pathetic, unproductive High School career. I want a hawt pair of DJ headphones from SONY. According to a few people, SONY makes great personal audio; can’t say the same for large-scale. [[ Check out prices for the here: MDR-V700 DJ, along with specs, here: http://froogle.google.com/froogle?q=MDR-V700DJ ]]

I got to be judge today; It was pretty weird at first. By the end, it felt like I had done it for quite a long amount of time and was satisfied with my rulings. It’s unfortunate that one team hadn’t objected at all… Hopefully they’ll work on that before Wednesday :hint-hint:…

I’ve become incredibly confused as to who wants me and who I want; Right now, I’d want to go out with around 6 people… This creates a lot of tension (and unknown desire, so, no tension with around 3 of these people) which keeps me entertained. That’s how I like it.

Another thing to keep me entertained would be a JOB! Come on; My mind is going to waste just sitting here talking to people on AIM all day. I’ve applied to about 9 different companies. I don’t even remember which ones, but here’s what I can remember: Circuit City, Best Buy, Walgreen’s, Sears (which I have an interview for next Monday, the 14th, 2005), CompUSA… That’s all I can remember for now.

We’ll see how that turns out. I’d prefer the SEARS job over other companies; That position would… always be fun. [No, I didn't say what position yet.]

We’ll see how much work I fell behind in while I was away at UIL hosting for the Region, staring at people I’d like to…

There is really only one person I’d like to mention now. Juan’s life isn’t exactly going perfect, and I care a lot about him, so if any of you do that praying stuff, could you pray for him? I love him =) That’s all for tonight. Aww, I have a heart. ,,!,,

Goodnight.

[Final Note: The scrollbar was too tiny, so I decreased it back a little; now showing only 6 posts per page instead of 10. Slower-speed users will be satisfied... Final Final Note: I love Juan :) ]

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 7, 2005
At 10:22 pm
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More Mierda.

Anyone notice: I just upped the entries per page to 10 on my light blog. Bandwidth overusage, here we come! ….

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Rated Tv-14 for Mature Language… Nah really? Me showing a log with mature language? LOL.

Duffman0615: lemme read the blog again
Duffman0615: the link
Intelligence Boi: www.drnx.net/indexlight.php
Intelligence Boi: I like how you make everything work on your timetable
Intelligence Boi: =)
Duffman0615: wut?
Intelligence Boi: Oh, and, just for you, no comments allowed
Intelligence Boi: I really don’t care to hear your nonsense
Duffman0615: cuz u just cant accept the truth i tell
Duffman0615: ^_^
Intelligence Boi: ok
Intelligence Boi: fine
Intelligence Boi: i’ll enable comments.
Intelligence Boi: there you go
Duffman0615: LOL
Duffman0615: k
Intelligence Boi: comment away!
Intelligence Boi: now remember
Intelligence Boi: don’t insult me
Intelligence Boi: I will be more inclined to agree with you
Intelligence Boi: if you are simply HONEST
Intelligence Boi: and don’t say “faggot” and other things like that
Duffman0615: well i just say things the way they are
Intelligence Boi: err… no?
Intelligence Boi: such fags like u fred
Intelligence Boi: “fags” has no meaning…
Intelligence Boi: and isn’t a fact
Intelligence Boi: it’s an insult
Intelligence Boi: fukin 2 face piece of shit
Intelligence Boi: more insult
Duffman0615: hey just the truth
Intelligence Boi: lol, ok, you think that.
Intelligence Boi: Tell you what…
Duffman0615: yea
Intelligence Boi: Just make a point
Intelligence Boi: calling me gay isn’t a good reason as to why Karla would be better wtih Chris
Intelligence Boi: and telling me to “stfu” on my own website which I pay for isn’t too respectful
Duffman0615: a web site s a website
Intelligence Boi: your house is your house
Intelligence Boi: would you appreciate it if I went into it and told you to leave from it?
Duffman0615: hey a comments a comment
Intelligence Boi: you ever notice that I don’t insult people?
Intelligence Boi: I try to have an argument
Intelligence Boi: and people think I’m just trying to insult them
Intelligence Boi: by telling the truth
Intelligence Boi: then they just make things up
Intelligence Boi: call me gay
Intelligence Boi: try to turn everything against me
Duffman0615: well u have insulted me couple of times
Duffman0615: so yea
Intelligence Boi: that’s not an argument
Intelligence Boi: yeah, a couple of times
Intelligence Boi: and tell me it wasn’t well-deserved
Duffman0615: but see u STILL insulted me
Intelligence Boi: I’m not perfect
Intelligence Boi: At times I’ll get annyoed with you
Intelligence Boi: but I won’t call you a queer
Intelligence Boi: and faggot
Duffman0615: Intelligence Boi: you ever notice that I don’t insult people?
Intelligence Boi: that’s just, like, pointless
Duffman0615: see?
Intelligence Boi: Intelligence Boi: I’m not perfect
Intelligence Boi: Oh my!
Intelligence Boi: If you’re not listening to me
Intelligence Boi: that’s the only time I’ll insult you
Intelligence Boi: if I’m having an argument I won’t insult you
Duffman0615: LOL
Intelligence Boi: and, if you’re insulting me, you’ll get the same thing back
Duffman0615: either way insults still come out
Intelligence Boi: why would I show you respect if you were insulting me? come on now
Intelligence Boi: You know, if I was you, I would’ve said “why don’t you and chris go ‘fuk’ each other and STFU”
Duffman0615: lol i dont care
Intelligence Boi: But that wouldn’t have served a purpose, because it has no basis for an argument
Duffman0615: cuz thats just text
Intelligence Boi: AWwwww.. Just text?
Intelligence Boi: Quote from Gilbert:
Duffman0615: dude ur just gettin mad at text
Intelligence Boi: “Do you know how many times you’ve hurt me?”
Intelligence Boi: I’ve never seen you in persno
Intelligence Boi: so that must’ve happened online.
Intelligence Boi: Just text, eh?
Duffman0615: yea just text
Duffman0615: pluz u never seen me
Duffman0615: so yea
Intelligence Boi: haha
Intelligence Boi: I just wish you’d stop hating on me…
Intelligence Boi: I was never genuinely pissed at you
Intelligence Boi: then you had to get involved in something that won’t ever be resolved…
Intelligence Boi: I’m not going to respect Chris again, so why screw yourself over?
Duffman0615: cuz chris is one of my best friends and i wanna help him
Intelligence Boi: Help him?
Intelligence Boi: Insulting other people doesn’t “help” him
Intelligence Boi: If you were to tell me to …
Intelligence Boi: for example, show respect
Intelligence Boi: or back off…
Intelligence Boi: and not just say “stfu” I would listen
Duffman0615: hey antonio did it too so i had the right 2 say it
Intelligence Boi: ?
Intelligence Boi: I’m not Antonio…
Intelligence Boi: He’s not involved in it, either
Intelligence Boi: What he says is his business…
Intelligence Boi: You’re telling me if he was to stab you
Intelligence Boi: you could stab me
Intelligence Boi: even though I had nothing to do with it?
Intelligence Boi: I don’t promote arguments
Intelligence Boi: especially stupid insults
Duffman0615: if u were by his side yes
Intelligence Boi: He was taking my side…
Intelligence Boi: I wasn’t taking his
Duffman0615: and chris needed my help since he was getting insulted
Intelligence Boi: If you haven’t noticed, I’m not a biased person
Intelligence Boi: I didn’t see him getting insulted; sorry.
Duffman0615: so i wanted to help cris by insluting bak
Intelligence Boi: not by me anyway…
Intelligence Boi: and he could’ve just let it die down…
Intelligence Boi: I blocked his IP
Intelligence Boi: I even blocked comments…
Intelligence Boi: all in the interest of everyone
Intelligence Boi: but he had to continue
Intelligence Boi: case in point, he did it to himself
Duffman0615: no u brought antonio into it too
Intelligence Boi: NO! LOL
Intelligence Boi: Omg.
Duffman0615: anotio also had nothing to do with it
Duffman0615: so yea
Intelligence Boi: You know how many people visit my blog every day?
Intelligence Boi: YOU DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT EITHER
Intelligence Boi: “Aww because he did it, that makes it ok for me to do it too!”
Intelligence Boi: Bullshit!
Duffman0615: hes still my best friend
Intelligence Boi: This isn’t some damned chain reaction
Duffman0615: look ur getitn mad already
Intelligence Boi: I’m not getting mad
Intelligence Boi: I’m LAUGHING at you
Duffman0615: meh who cares
Duffman0615: text is text
Intelligence Boi: And that’s enough for today. Later.
Duffman0615: fag

Ell Oh Ell…

Let’s see who helps who out now.

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 6, 2005
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Blah.

I’m slowly trying to… purge, that’s a good word; I’m purging the past. Not necessarily an easy task, but certainly not too much of a challenge for someone like me.

Let’s face it– on a daily basis, I put myself in awkward positions so that something is guaranteed to go wrong, and when I’m not in a mood to deal with it, it comes and finds me.

Though the latter rarely happens, I’d like to see both not happen at all. The world is not a perfect place, but that doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t have to do my part to please others.

Too often, I go about pleasing myself. If everyone was to do that, well, we’d all be happy with ourselves (which I am), but others who are less fortunate to not accomplish their task, and are too busy worrying about people like me, wouldn’t feel as happy.

Basically what I’m trying to say is, I believe I’ll give being nice another shot. It was painful the first time; too often people ignored me, or at least, it felt like they were [whoa, I accidentally typed 'feeled'--Don't I feel hispanic X_X]…

That doesn’t mean I’ll lose my edge; It just means I’ll try to use a little more tact around the general population. However, if I know you can tolerate my mass loads of insults, I won’t hold back. Well, I may, but it’s only so that I can be a more relaxed person. Being borderline ADD doesn’t help. Having people that say they were your friends only to say they never were doesn’t help. Oh wait, only one person has done that. ,,!,, to them. That’s what I call purging the past…

It’s pretty quick! Just like emptying the Recycle Bin on your computer…

Or is that because I’m evil? :P Anywho, I’ll try and relax, cut back on my derogatory remarks about, say, EVERYTHING and EVERYONE, and see how that turns out… I’ll update you all in a few weeks.

This is going to be one hell of a ride :D

I may make another entry about how I’ve felt about certain people lately… or I’ll just add onto this one. Who knows? ;)

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Muahaha. :P

OoOYaRightThere: just so you know, I commented
Intelligence Boi: fascinating
OoOYaRightThere: meh not really
Intelligence Boi: LMFAO
Intelligence Boi: nice comment
OoOYaRightThere: I try
Intelligence Boi: that’s what I had said to him as well
OoOYaRightThere: haha really?
Intelligence Boi: oh yeah
Intelligence Boi: INTELligence boi: Stop trying to be sarcastic
INTELligence boi: Look who you’re talking to
INTELligence boi: come on man =)
Intelligence Boi: I hate it when people try and argue with me
Intelligence Boi: and they cannot spell
OoOYaRightThere: well it was really obvious he was trying to use that snide, i dont care about you sarcasm that you have perfected
Intelligence Boi: mhm
Intelligence Boi: except
Intelligence Boi: he rambled on without end
Intelligence Boi: i simply say a comment adn shut up
Intelligence Boi: and let the other side ramble away
OoOYaRightThere: which is why it was so sad
OoOYaRightThere: It was the novice trying to take on the master
Intelligence Boi: hahaha
Intelligence Boi: I was teaching him how tobe an ass, too
Intelligence Boi: a week or so ago
OoOYaRightThere: looks like he has alot to learn
Intelligence Boi: he wasn’t ready for public display yet
Intelligence Boi: yes
OoOYaRightThere: especially against you…tsk tsk

I love how my life can be summed up with clips of AIM Logs!

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 5, 2005
At 7:46 pm
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Loggage.

–Edit 3/6/05 @ 4:51PM–

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Rated TV-14 for Mature Language. Mature Content. Oops!

HtCdAc: I love you
INTELligence boi: argh
INTELligence boi: repaste what you just said
INTELligence boi: i was closing someone else’s window
HtCdAc: [21:54] HtCdAc: fucking dickless shit eating cracker white bitch faggot
[21:54] HtCdAc: I love you
INTELligence boi: Lol
INTELligence boi: Yay!!!
HtCdAc: (not really)
HtCdAc: LOL
INTELligence boi: I know
HtCdAc: anyway, fuck off now
INTELligence boi: Why are you saying that to me?
INTELligence boi: You’re the one IMing me…
HtCdAc: random stuff
HtCdAc: bored, you might as well entertain me
INTELligence boi: I offered you a break from me…
INTELligence boi: Want me to withdraw that offer?
HtCdAc: I said entertain me, I didn’t say for you to talk to me again
INTELligence boi: All right. Since you’d rather stare at a wall, I’ll provide the finest form of entertainment….
INTELligence boi: …Silence. Enjoy.
HtCdAc: thanks
INTELligence boi: And, if I were you, I wouldn’t continue this…
HtCdAc: umm you know… you can’t really hear words… nice
INTELligence boi: I’m fairly relaxed… but that won’t stop me from punching you, seriously….
HtCdAc: lol
INTELligence boi: I can only take so much mierda from one person.
INTELligence boi: =/
HtCdAc: aw im sorry
HtCdAc: wait, no im not ^_^
HtCdAc: lmfao
INTELligence boi: Stop trying to be sarcastic
INTELligence boi: Look who you’re talking to
INTELligence boi: come on man =)
HtCdAc: hey, at least you’re entertaining me
HtCdAc: so its all good
HtCdAc: at least you’re worth for something
HtCdAc: (no offence)
INTELligence boi: *sigh*
INTELligence boi: Offense*
HtCdAc: =D
HtCdAc: same difference
INTELligence boi: how many people know you wanted to make out with me?
INTELligence boi: and “always have”
HtCdAc: pretty much everyone
HtCdAc: because I love you
HtCdAc: omg
HtCdAc: omg
HtCdAc: I also want to make out
HtCdAc: with mr creeger
HtCdAc: and… my dad
INTELligence boi: Lovely!
HtCdAc: word
HtCdAc: lol I like cheese
HtCdAc: lol
HtCdAc: lol
INTELligence boi: Sine everyone already knows, I guess I could post it on my site or something.
INTELligence boi: Since* too
HtCdAc: yep
HtCdAc: go ahead

I know; It doesn’t end. Why does he continue IMing me?

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By Frederick Szczepanski
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convo.

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Rated TV-14 for Mature Language; Reality; Mature Content. Reading Discretion Strongly Advised.

HtCdAc: One thing, I can’t believe you could chance… I don’t know what I did to you. I don’t know what I said to you. I tried to hold our so called “friendship” together, and yes, im such a dumbass for believing you. But now that I know, there is no way you can change, if I have a life or not, its none of your concern. Now please, get out of my life, because you’re not making it any better.
INTELligence boi: Lol
INTELligence boi: Later :D
INTELligence boi: That’s so fuckin blog-worthy.
INTELligence boi: Thanks, boi.
HtCdAc: What is the smiley for?
INTELligence boi: You’re fuckin hilarious man.
HtCdAc: Wow, im impressed by the lack of your care.
HtCdAc: heh
INTELligence boi: Not really.
INTELligence boi: Just to see that I no longer care for you since you didn’t seem to care for me.
HtCdAc: Ever heard of sarcasm?
HtCdAc: yeah
INTELligence boi: And, recalling the past doesn’t renew friendships.
INTELligence boi: “Remember when I didn’t want to hang up?
INTELligence boi: ”
INTELligence boi: I don’t care about the past
HtCdAc: thats nice
HtCdAc: who does?
INTELligence boi: I’m sorry that you had to deal with me, seriously.
INTELligence boi: You don’t understand. I think you’re a really nice person
HtCdAc: I tried
INTELligence boi: I just have incredibly strict standards man
HtCdAc: and so I thought the same
INTELligence boi: It just.. didn’t seem like you care
INTELligence boi: I’ll still love you,but, too much nonsense
HtCdAc: well, maybe because I don’t like you like you like me?
INTELligence boi: It seems like we bitch more than we’re happy
INTELligence boi: I don’t like you like that dude
HtCdAc: right
INTELligence boi: …
HtCdAc: iether way
INTELligence boi: *sigh*
INTELligence boi: fuck off now.
HtCdAc: same
INTELligence boi: You’re ignoring what I’m saying, and I now give up.
INTELligence boi: I will not tolerate that. Please leave.
HtCdAc: well there is nothing to explain
INTELligence boi: I will not tolerate that. Please leave.
HtCdAc: everything is fucked up now
INTELligence boi: I will not tolerate that. Please leave.
HtCdAc: lol
INTELligence boi: I will not tolerate that. Please leave.
HtCdAc: lmao
INTELligence boi: =)
INTELligence boi: Who cares if it’s fucked up?
HtCdAc: I do
INTELligence boi: Let’s face it; I’m going to go out with Karla eventually.
HtCdAc: thats nice
INTELligence boi: I guess so.
HtCdAc: mhmm
INTELligence boi: She entertains me…
INTELligence boi: It’s nice.
HtCdAc: Uhh… Right
INTELligence boi: I loved you when you weren’t around other people
HtCdAc: well im not yours
HtCdAc: so im sorry
INTELligence boi: You just act so totally imbecilic around others, lmao.
INTELligence boi: but that’s still not it GEEZ WTF
INTELligence boi: I still don’t know.
INTELligence boi: Obviously one person cares more about the other
HtCdAc: right
INTELligence boi: that’s the only thing I can think of
HtCdAc: anyway
INTELligence boi: Want to type another large pargraph and make it emo again?
HtCdAc: It was a waste of time talking to you, but you were entertaining
INTELligence boi: Saying I can’t “change” is bullshit and you know it
HtCdAc: no thanks, why type it when im gonig to ignore it anyway?
HtCdAc: =)
HtCdAc: besides I have no time for you, I’d rather stare at the wall
INTELligence boi: I know that means nothing to you
HtCdAc: so anyway
INTELligence boi: well then, sorry you feel that way.
INTELligence boi: Btw, you’re mexican; you can’t pull off smooth sarcasm.
HtCdAc: and I care because?
INTELligence boi: That’s my only insult to you. Feel special.
HtCdAc: thanks
INTELligence boi: anyway.
HtCdAc: I take that as a compliment actually
INTELligence boi: I don’t know why you made the big dramatic statements
HtCdAc: maybe because I don’t want you to fuck around with my friends
INTELligence boi: I’m all confused, etc, that you would make a big deal out of anything I can do
INTELligence boi: Who? Gilbert?
HtCdAc: oh wow gilbert
HtCdAc: don’t be such a dumbass
INTELligence boi: The guy who talks about you?….
HtCdAc: see there it goes again
HtCdAc: im a dumbass
INTELligence boi: and says you make him feel uncomfortable?
INTELligence boi: Stop acting like you’re smarter than me *sigh*
HtCdAc: I don’t even know why im even talking to you, you’re not worth of my time
HtCdAc: anyway
INTELligence boi: Then depart.
HtCdAc: thanks for getting out of my life
INTELligence boi: That’s what people hate about me. I give into their demands ;-)
INTELligence boi: Yw!
HtCdAc: I hope I never see you again =)
HtCdAc signed off at 10:28:45 PM.

Look who loves me!

You know, what’s sad is that people say things like that to me… and … oh well. =)

Isn’t it nice how I let him say everything while he decides to block me?… Truly, for someone to say that I’m not worth their time, well, that’s mierda. Thanks, love.

He just IMed me with his other SN:
sumrandomd00d: oops didn’t finish saying your sentece? too bad

Lol. Oh my; You’re in control so much…

What I love is, his life is gonna suck major fuckin’ ass. He’s failing all his classes and is being kicked out of the Academy. God that’s so awesome. Not really, but, What Goes ‘Round Comes ‘Round. I’m sick of this bullshit, and I won’t have to deal with it that much longer.

I’m just glad everything’s been revealed now…

Oh, and I have a 50 in English for the Six-Weeks. Hawt, eh?

Off I go.

Zack’s t3h man =) Almost a year in a month and a few days :D

Antonio entertains me ;)

Chris still entertains me even though he acts like he hates me (I’m a weird creature)

Kathryn is an amazingly entertaining girl :rawr:

Karla, well, I don’t need to say more, love

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By Frederick Szczepanski
On March 1, 2005
At 10:21 pm
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