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Rated TV-MA for Mature Language. Tis The Season To Hate Without Reason.

This is an irritating holiday season.

What’s good about it?

Some people got some gifts. Woot. I didn’t get any. At least, not that I know of. (Except Jose. Any references to humans, people, etc etc, are excluding him, and Zack, and Cal, and Chris, and anyone else listed on the bottom of this blog page as my friend.)

I don’t understand why people have to be so motherfucking difficult. But, that’s another issue.

Who’s heard any good news, gifts aside? All I’ve heard from people was that they had surgery, either required or unplanned, people are pissed off at each other, people didn’t get what they wanted to for who they wanted it for, the list goes on and on…

But, let’s think.

Why are we expecting the holidays to be any cheerier?

Suicides sharply increase around the holidays. Must be all that affection we have for one another in America, right? Oh, whoops, it’s.. EXCEPT America.

We’ve become a very detached nation. If you didn’t know that already, then you’d become detached… We’re the most unsocial people that I’ve ever seen.

I feel like deleting all of that.

You can tell my thoughts are detached when I don’t make any actual paragraphs. I feel so uncomfortable right now, and it is pissing me off more than you can ever imagine. Uncomfortable. Warm, outside. Angry, inside. Confused, who knows where. That’s what makes it fucking confusion.

I don’t like expressing anger in my posts.

Holidays suck. They really do.

However, I’m going to do something different than what most of us did on the 25, or 24 for some Hispanics… and that is, be thankful for what I already have… and what I don’t.

I’m happy that I:
+have Jose, someone who will care about me more than anyone else. Someone I can share the rest of my life with because we get along so well. We’re so different, and disagree on so many things, but that makes us even more perfect. =] Jose is just plain awesome. More than awesome. **baby boi, you are perfect **

Normally I would post this kind of stuff in an image, but my head and body is hurting too much at the moment to do anything too strenuous.

Thank god for music. I don’t know what I would do without it… especially electronic music. I also don’t know what I would do without Jose. =]

Zack, I have to be thankful for him, my best friend… Not much else to say. Just read through my posts and you’ll see me talking about him.

Other people… yeah. I’m glad you’re here.

I just hope next year won’t be as disappointing as this year, but as life continues to unravel, I’m not really certain of anything… It seems that it gets more difficult… some things are so rediculously easy, and we long for that so bad. The easy shit. Why? Why can’t everything just be average… normal… There is no such thing. It’s disappointing. I’m rambling without end. I’ll stop now.

If you’re holidays are going good, 99% of Americans envy you.

BYE.

Eek.

I haven’t done a blog entry in a long-ass time.

I had an iPod Video 60GB, then returned it. Don’t buy one of those if you aren’t going to buy a HARD case for it as well. A case that covers the SCREEN, too. Why the hell do they even make ‘cases’ that don’t cover the screen, the part which apple was being sued over? Eh.

Anyway, I took this picture and I just love it. It has significance if you find my MySpace and Jose’s…

– click on it to see the full size.

ANYWAY.

I’ve been oddly busy. Work has been taking up quite a bit of my time. School ends tomorrow… but I still must register for classes. I’ll do that later on.

I’m just doing wonderfully! If that’s the right way to say it..

I know I haven’t kept up much. Why not? I don’t understand why… I want to say a lot, I always do.

Yesterday, I was really annoyed with my mother. Aww, doesn’t that sound childish? But seriously, I’m 18 and she complains about who I’m friends with, then told me that I could not see Jose, my favorite person in the world! Well, this made my night even more disappointing. **hint hint: look @ pic…**

All right. So then I was talking to Zack and he told me to look at it in a positive way, even if I couldn’t really see one, and that there was one. He said that at least I had a car to see Jose with sometimes in the first place. In the end, my stomach ache went away, I got to see Jose because mommy was nice enough to leave the car (I was sort of figuring that, even though she went to bed saying she wouldn’t) and I got to see my boi Jose! Everything worked out perfectly… and it still does.

In other news, don’t buy car seat covers. They look like @#$#, unless, of course, your cat already peed on the seat and you already made a mess on them. Otherwise, they’re terrible!

For new readers, I used to rate my blog TV-G but then realized.. if there’s nothing to warn you about, why tell you in the first place?

All right. It’s been about five minutes since I started typing this. I suppose I should get going to go pick up my mother… we get to go see my dad. If you were over here, you’d see that I am not, not excited at all. He wants to see me every week, though. what’s up with that? He leaves for a few years, and now wants to remain in .. constant.. contact with me. It’s quite sad. He has no one else… so turn back to the people who cared about you.

Then again, why’d he make the mistakes to get rid of us in the first place?

I guess life sometimes disillusions us into thinking other things are better than what we already have. The “grass is greener on the other side” nonsense.

This was just a filler entry… and that didn’t take long at all. Six minutes! Yeah, I do type too fast…

Hope everyone has a great day. I’m having the time of my life!

Zack’s t3h man