All right, so I started typing out this entry, and thought I had copy-pasted the whole thing… how many times have you heard that?
I’ll stop right there.
I finally finished my new blog design and finally uploaded it–both of those take forever. Not because it’s hard work, but because I simply move too darn slow. Speaking of… My weight has gone up to 190. GEEZ. I need to work on that badly… Anyway, I don’t think I will be updating too often unless this blog post gets a decent amount of comments. It’s all in your hands!… Thanks.
This is a three-part blog. The first part is to welcome to you my new blog design, v3-dark-traffic. I rarely use reds in my web designs… I take that back. I never have. Seriously… At least, not as the main color.
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Also, instead of putting the ‘about me’ section on the left or right side, I put it underneath all the page’s content. I figure, if you care enough to read a few entries [5], then and only then should you realize that my information is on all pages. =] I think the images are semi-decent, don’t you?
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The second part of my blog is to butter you up for the topic that’s already going to get my blog a TV-14 rating since it involves death. But I would like to take that negative and make it a positive, among other things.
The third part of my blog is about death and such. But, we’re not there yet, so here’s your butter.
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Isn’t it a beautiful bird? I personally don’t like seeing any bird being killed, even though I did eat a turkey this year [not last year], but nonetheless, we can still admire their beauty. =] Cows are pretty, too.
But now, let’s move on. Wait. No. Not yet. I will be buying a Digital SLR Camera for myself… Compact Digital Cameras just haven’t cut it for me. I have a 5.1MP 21x Zoom [3x Optical, 7x Digital] HP R707 Camera for Sale. I may throw in the 1GB SD Card, capable of holding over 500 pictures in the highest quality. I paid around $400 for the stuff, but you can get them together for just $150. I’ll be selling it on eBay if no one wants it. Jose of course, gets a 50% Discount on anything I want to sell.
All right… The third part.
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Rated TV-14 for Violence, Death and Mature Language.
What are we grateful for? Avid blog readers of mine know that on Thanksgiving, I don’t post a fancy, all-out image about what and who I am thankful for. [I instead wait to do this on Christmas Day.] I am thankful for so much… but, who isn’t?
Most of you, I’m sure.
We always want more. Geez do I want more. MORE MORE MORE. WTF? I don’t know why I am so damned greedy, just like most of America… We’re all overweight. A quote from Bill Maher: “We feed cows too sick to stand… to people too fat to walk.” It’s fucking disgusting. I know it’s good to be thankful for what we have, and I know it’s good to get more things, but… there has to be a line somewhere. I want to move away from material things and move towards people. Are we grateful for our friends? Do we treat them wrong? Are we sometimes too harsh to them? Did they deserve it? Did WE? So many questions that should be answered…
I don’t want to answer those, honestly. Sometimes, you each need to find out something by yourself. Like one of my favorite [and only read] books that I have, “this [blog] does not give answers, it instead provokes questions.” So, if I’ve made your mind think a little, then that’s the first step towards thinking. I came up with that one myself… seriously.
You all are just DYING to find out about… dying? All right.
Background info: Zack is my best friend. He has lived in North Carolina all his life [which is far away from me! booo] and of course has friends there…
Sadly, today, he has one less friend on this Earth.
No no no, our friendship didn’t die. However, one of his friends that lived there, near him, was killed in a car crash today. Today, of all days. Thanksgiving. Let that fucking sink in. And here I am, complaining about my weight, and how I’m slow and lazy. What am I doing about that? Absolutely nothing. And it pisses me off. I’m perfectly healthy, have the best friends ever [JOSE 
+ Zack], and yet… life doesn’t satisfy me. Why? Perhaps I’m just not grateful. I’m just not thankful. I don’t realize how much I have.
You never realize how much you have until you lose it.
A rather graphic/extreme quote, but quite accurate. Obviously, losing someone will cause us to realize how important that person was… but why should we wait until then?
I think this blog entry has rambled on long enough. I am thankful for the ability to realize I am ungrateful. That’s the moral part of it. I am thankful for the house, car, digital camera, computer, cell phone [x2?], 60gb iPod video, endless pile of digital shit, and other things that I have. That’s the stuff part of it. I am most thankful for my mother for giving me life [yeah, you all forget your mother this time of year, don’t you?], Jose for being part of my life and completing my life… adding more than I ever thought possible [love you dude! :D], Zack for being my best friend for over a year and a half [the longest friendship I’ve ever had… ever], Cal, Chris, Jorge, and other best [close] friends for simply not being complete morons and respecting me. I do my best to give back whatever you deserve. Oh, and let’s not forget, I am thankful for my father. I am thankful for being alive, having just enough friends, having the infinite number of [abuse-able] opportunities to have friends [so don’t abuse them–the number may run out at any time…] I am thankful for everyone who has ever helped me with anything… for everyone who hasn’t treated me differently because of any attribute of me… I am thankful for being able to be me, in this great country, and thankful that Jose is always himself as well. May we live together forever… Come to think of it, life is pretty fuckin’ sweet.
