edward fox’s reality

Look at this guy. Even when he’s sad, he smiles for me.

He’s so pimp. I love you dude.

Umm…

When a relationship ends, do we ever really move on? Or do we just act like we do and hope our heart and brain follows? I got to listen to my ex play guitar on the phone… and it’s horrible because it almost drove me to tears, realizing that he isn’t mine now… realizing that there is no us. Yes, we can be friends, but it’s those rediculous obstacles that could not be ignored…

Distance. He was too far. How far? Let’s just say a few states away. It wasn’t working out… and being on the phone with him just helps me realize what I’m missing, but at the same time how far away he is, and how it’s our only true method of communication. There was no physical connection and that’s what hurt it more than anything…

We were fine. I know that if we lived closer, it would work out beautifully, but what can you say?

I just had to write something. I found someone else now…. really sweet, and awesome. Closer, too. I’ll always love James…. seriously. He’s awesome in too many ways to count, but sometimes things don’t work out. That’s how life is… You simply have to accept what happens, and then take whatever’s left…

Is that the way it’s supposed to work out? =/

[Hug]

G’Night.

Even though a lot has happened, I’ve been WAY too lazy to update… Why is that?

It’s because each time I start working on an entry, and actually make it worth reading to a certain length, before I actually submit it, my computer messes up. It’s done that twice, just so you know.

So what’s happened?

1) I’m with someone. Probably permanently. (:
2) I Graduated. Who cares, though, seriously? It’s Just High School.
3) My Job.
4) … other stuff, but I can’t seem to recall it all right now.
5) My hard drive is dying.
6) I’ve been busy paying too many bills…

First thing’s first, right? It should be. I’m going out with someone… by the name of James. If you read the previous post about Rick, ignore that– that was just an odd… ‘phase’ of two days. Funny because I met James two days after I met Rick– and thank God I did. He’s the most amazing person you could ever meet….

But I really don’t feel like rambling. I really don’t feel like typing at all, period. This morning feels a bit off, but all will be well soon enough, I’m sure.

I graduated. Whoop tee do, if that’s even how you spell that. Who cares? I really never understood the big deal of graduation parties and all that. Is that why it IS a big deal–so that we can all get high and party our asses off? Very well. Point well-made. Not to say I did that…

I’m just glad it’s finally over. I was really, really ready for it to be over after Christmas Break (err, to be Politically Correct, “Winter Break”)…

Oh well.

My job. I switched to a Cashier… I seem to enjoy that a lot more.

My hard drive, yeah. I’ve lost a few thousand songs. Oh Joy.

And bills bills bills. I have no spending money. But at least I pay them the day I receive them… that’s a life lesson.

I don’t really feel all too good right now, so this is all I’m going to write… Later.