edward fox’s reality

I haven’t written in this little digital realm, so I guess I’ll update everyone on what’s happened lately.

Rated TV-PG for Reality. It hurts, it hurts! But it’s required…

I’ve divided this entry up into a certain number of parts. Read each part a separate day to keep the fun coming!

PART ONE ::

I canceled my subscription to Xanga.

I was scrolling through the latest posts, and unfortunately, no one knows how to write anything useful… I won’t mention names, but within the last week, I browsed through my pile of subscriptions (I subscribed to all people anonymously…) and I was utterly disappointed. Not one entry was truly worth reading. Even in Zuri’s mess of subscriptions (she had 76), not one person seemed to know how to write a decent entry…

I know not all of mine are true to the “blog” definition, so today represents a unique trial at something which involves multiple people. Such is what a blog is. The blogs most people write is like a donut that’s fallen on the ground. It’s there, someone wanted to do something with it; it had potential, but it lost it; now, no one wants to touch the donut, and the donut is taking up space, and it will waste someone’s time, causing people to stare at it, and it will be a distraction. It’s useless since it’s fallen into a pile of dirt… at least, to people that have half a brain.

In short, “blog” posts by most users on Xanga are simply pure crap. Do we really care about what you did yesterday? Maybe. If you involve other people in it, such as giving a moral or some sort of depth to what happened, then yes, possibly; if you’re simply stating “I swallowed my tongue ring”… is this really worth reading? Think.

Unfortunately, at the beginning of this blog, I am not going to be able to start with how a blog should be done. Instead, I’ve had another disturbing problem in my life; none other than, Antonio. Let’s get into it!

PART TWO ::

All right. Let’s do a topic switch. This is hot in my mind. Oops– no, let’s not. Presenting, my blog– once that doesn’t complain about someone just because of one slip-up… or one slip-up by seven people in one day, with most a unique case. In condensed form, at least seven people have pissed me off today. For a brief period of time. [[If you’re taking advice on how to write a personal blog that still involves other people, here you go… read my next few lines.]] The problem was that their incidents mounted and created more problems for me. The one person who always makes the problems fit perfectly in the puzzle is Antonio–my little problem keeper; he purposely makes things about him and whenever I’m in a bad mood, he makes sure that my mood is worse. This is one of the primary reasons that I dumped him (so to speak, in the friendship form) once I found Zack.

For some of you, this is a re-cap. But basically, I was best friend with Antonio up until when I had met Zack. Once I met Zack, however, I realized it wasn’t okay for friends to make each other feel like crap (which was something I wasn’t the initiator of) and realized that nice people actually did exist in the world. Skipping past at least hundreds of arguments and to the present, he says I don’t care, even if I still do.

This is the reason I’m not his friend. This is the reason I usually make a poor friend.

Unfortunately, the time has come for me to outline my friend specifications. There are currently three levels of friends. Please note that this differs from the pyramid (which may be accessed here).

Premium Level (Codenamed Best friend): This includes a category of individuals with distinguished attitudes and extreme levels of respect for all or most kinds of people. Examples would be accepting of new people they have never met before with high levels of respect for those individuals; they must value my opinion over most people; respect for people that respect them; ability to accept comments in a positive manner; be a positive person; like people for the right reasons. Though right is a relative term, unacceptable reasons of liking certain people (of either gender) would be: [only] one common interest, their attractiveness [higher level], their clothing [style], other criterion beyond the scope of this short description. Other qualifications may include the following: talk on the phone at least twice per month; see each other in person outside of school at least 3 times per year; this number may be higher or lower depending on your circumstances. For example, where you live or if you work a lot can be a contributing factor. Finally, if you are respectful towards many, but call few your true friends, you will almost instantly be accepted into this Premium category if you meet most of the aforementioned requirements.

My requirements to return to these parties are as follows: be respectful in a manner equal to or higher than their respect level to me; be more accepting of people they care about; be more accepting of their friends; immediately accept their point of view without hesitation unless it seems faulted. The final rarely occurs since I choose my friends wisely (post-Antonio-delusion).

The next level, Advanced Level (Codenamed Friend): This level should still be a respected level of achievement. This includes a category of individuals with very good attitudes and very high levels of respect for most or certain people. Qualifications for this category include the reasons above with these exceptions (qualifications optional): they do not have to respect for people that respect them (with exception to people they are friends with); they do not have to be accepting towards people they haven’t met; they do not have to respect other people in the way that those people may respect them; they must value my opinion over most people… Though this seems like a large step lower than Best Friend, it takes a lot for someone to make it into this category.

My requirements to this level is all the same for Premium with exception to this rule: immediately accept their point of view without hesitation unless it seems faulted.

The middle category is Moderate Level (Codenamed Partial Friend): Friends on this level will not get special treatment, in comparison to people of higher ranks/levels. They will, however, not be looked down upon and have the potential to reach a higher level of Friendship with me.

The lowest level, Overrated Level, which is lower than people I know (Codenamed “Friends”, not to be confused with Friends): This includes people which strongly defy the rules above. This group includes: people who do not care about my feelings; people who do not care about me; people who don’t expect me to care about them but somehow think I do…

This is by far a limited list of what ranks people have, and your status in this list may change hourly. If you lose your status from the Premium rank, you will be dropped down a minimum of two levels. All other level demotions lose one tier instead of two. “Friends” can work their way up to Partial Friends or Friends…

So what was the point of that? It was basically preventing me from arguing about Antonio, a lot. Complaining about him. Then you’d be annoyed, too. I want to share a few details on things you shouldn’t do in an argument.

1) Don’t tell someone you don’t care about them, just to make them feel worse. By doing this, you’re avoiding the actual problem and will only make the current situation more strenuous for all parties.

2) Don’t use profanity. This deviates from the possibility of solving the problem sooner; when people have arguments, the impact isn’t as great if you use profanity; carefully-picked words at times may add to the impact and help resolve a situation faster, but in general, saying “F you” 10+ times in a row is not a call for resolution on your behalf.

3) Don’t fake it–break it. [[I sort of stole part of that phrase from http://www.wintermusicconference.com … the “Shake it, Don’t Break It” badge giveaway message. If you want to enter, go ahead Heh. Anyway. ]] If you don’t tell someone how you really feel, who are you protecting? You’re not protecting yourself, because you’ll feel worse by lying or hiding it (unless the details don’t really affect anything); you won’t be protecting the person you’re talking about because hiding things that are that important in the first place won’t remove any disabling elements in a relationship– it will simply slow the process; so what do you prefer– a slow death, or a quick one? Up to you. If you’re honest, however, chances are that this will greatly reduce the chance that something will be wrong later on. We all know that when you lie once, you must lie repeatedly. This isn’t healthy for you. It will just train you to continuously lie. Whyyyyyy? Just solve it.

That’s all I can offer as far as that sector. I’m now going to proceed with what happened during this week.

I hadn’t seen Juan at all; that was really unfortunate. I still miss him a lot x_x However, as long as you still love someone, distance really isn’t that much of an issue :). Needless to say, my week has been dragging along. On Tuesday, I only went to half of the usual NPOI (New Philharmonic Orchestra of Irving) rehearsal. This was mainly because I had already gone to a rehearsal earlier in the day with Nimitz… 4 hours of rehearsing was enough for me in a 24-Hour Period k thnx. [Chris better have read that =P]

Speaking of Chris, if you read a few blog posts back, you’ll notice that I said I couldn’t be friends with him anymore. This has since changed; he said he had time to analyze who his actual friends were and I proudly make the cut *shows off .. k thnx* hehe. So yeah, I’m glad that he’s my best friend and I love him (: As with any of my best friends (”Premium Level” Friends– Juan, Zack, Chris), I would do anything for them. However, with each friend comes a different set of permissions and advantages. They each are treated different to maximize their level of satisfaction. I’m very dedicated to my Codenamed Premium friends, hence why I don’t have many of them. I don’t want to allow one into the group if they’re going to possibly lose their rank.

But moving along, I sat with Tim and others (Wednesday and Friday). Chris agreed to sit with me every “B” Day so I’m looking forward to that buddy Anyway, both days, Tim was being rather disrespectful towards Chris; I guess he thought I didn’t want to talk to Chris or something, and even though I kept telling him to drop it, he continued to insult Chris. On Friday, he threw a piece of food with ketchup at Chris. I didn’t appreciate this very much, but since Chris remained calm, I did as well. I will be discussing this little incident with Tim on Tuesday… or Monday, if time allows. I understand that we may not like each other’s friends, but that is no reason to degrade your level of treatment for random reasons.

But that aside, I’m really happy with the way things are going now. I wish I would have been able to spend time with Juan and such, but next week we are definitely planning on it. As you may know, my birthday is next Sunday… (February 6th)… I will most likely be spending the entire day with Juan… Chris said he may want to do something eventually someday (obviously outside of school)… So who all is going to use my Friend Ranking system? Eh? I think it’s somewhat interesting… and helped me sort of thoughts.

PART THREE ::

So let’s get down to things that may mildly interest you.

The site has been down a way-long time. It could have been brought up a few days after I brought it down, but I’ve slacked. Pardon me. x_X With that in mind, I better finish it up instead of continuing to ramble about it…

I’m thoroughly satisfied with all that has happened in the past week or so…

I had to return my camera again; I’ve returned and bought it so many times that I found the receipt amusing. Have an image:

The rest is just images. I hope you enjoy them… These are two shots of my Sirius Satellite Radio Receiver… the first one is just mind-blowing. It looks CGI’d, no?

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PART FOUR ::

Now, people pictures, in alpha-order:

[The rest were blurry =(]

No pictures of Juan… Yet. hopefully I’ll have more within 2 posts.

[ME]
Forgot this:

[OTHER PEOPLE] — Added on January 31, 2005 @ 7:45AM –

Any other images you may find in blogpost-images-013005/ were not good enough to be placed here Now to yesterday’s closing…

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It’s taken me long enough to get all this. Much (endless) love to Zack, Chris, Juan, and Gilbert Take care all my Premium and Advanced Friends!… Though Gilbert treaded on thin ice just now :P… I hope I get my site done tonight.

Enormous Victory for Live Music

Dear Frederick,

There is great news to report in the fight to Protect Live Music. As you may know, the Drug Policy Alliance spent 2004 battling against the CLEAN-UP Act in Congress.

While there was much in the bill we liked — it provided funding for safe cleaning of illegal methamphetamine laboratories — we opposed a key provision that would have punished nightclub owners and music promoters for their customers’ drug use.

Well, not only did the CLEAN-UP Act not pass last year, but earlier this month a new version of the CLEAN-UP Act was introduced that does NOT even contain the controversial provision.

This is an enormous victory for the Alliance and our supporters; live music fans across the country; musicians, club owners and activists; and the Protect Live Music campaign. It’s also a great way to start to 2005. We are grateful to the thousands of Alliance supporters like you who took action against the CLEAN-UP Act through our website and in protests last year.

Of course, it’s possible that this provision or something like it will surface again in other legislation. We’re on the lookout for it and will keep you informed.

Thank you for your support and dedication to drug-policy reform.

Sincerely,

Bill Piper
Director of National Affairs
Drug Policy Alliance

PS: We hope you will take the opportunity to celebrate this important victory by frequenting your favorite live music establishment.

More Info

In 2004, our supporters used our website to circulate petitions in opposition to the CLEAN-UP Act, called and wrote their members of Congress, and held protests across the country. The coordinated work of Alliance staff, ROAR, and other groups was clearly being felt not just on Capitol Hill but across the country. This helped stall the CLEAN-UP Act in committee. Our media efforts were successful as well, with the Act’s anti-music provision often being slapped with the dreaded “controversial” label in press reports. A staffer for the Congressman who introduced the bill told the Alliance they regretted even including the provision in the CLEAN-UP Act. The bill finally died in December when Congress adjourned for the year. Congress’s new version of the bill — HR 13, which was just introduced — does not contain the harmful anti-music provision.

Woot!

Rated TV-14 for Mature Language. Mature Content. Reality. Quite a bit of it.

So today’s my first time tuning into “American Idol”. There’s no particular reason for this, with the exception to the fact that I could not tune into FOX at all. I had been disappointed for years, mainly since I wanted to tune into the hit show “24″… I’m still working on Season One, but that’s my problem, not the world’s.

So how has American Idol been going so far? I tuned in at 7:20 on Wednesday, January 19, 2005. In my personal “opening” I saw 13 people (minimum) trying to perform a “Rollin’ Down the River” song. All were gay, and all sang terribly.

Aa’Shia seems to be the first person that sounded decently. Though she sounded like a chipmunk on Helium, the pitch was good, and it was enough to make

“My friends say I sound like Bryan McKnight.”… Even the Closed-Captioning says [Off-Key]… This was definitely not a good sign. Maurice Thomas is definitely one crappy thing not meant to be widely released on television. This literally made my eyes water. Such pain.

Carrie Underwood, a farm girl, decided to sing a country song. Lovely! It didn’t hurt for me to hear it.

Jeremy Wakefield, a lovely guy… or is he? Though his singing seemed semi-in-tune, his emotions got in the way of the ratings, with 1 out of 3 in favor. I saw that one coming from a mile away.

A little personal note. I think that on “American Idol”, they’re looking for an original voice, not one that’s been proven effective already in the entertainment industry. People don’t like duplicates, imitators. Things need to be new and fresh. So, if your entire soul of singing is inspired by another person more than your own voice, you won’t get very far…

Just in time! The show continues. It’s 7:53PM.

A fat dude obsessed with “Baywatch” was the first guy “Current of Love” Dirk Pearman… As Simon said, you shouldn’t choose a song from a theme song. Ouch.

Enough “American Idol”… That was a true 40 minutes of my life wasted.

So now I have a little bit of music to motivate me to type. Which reminds me. If you don’t know already, I’m working on a new website; The design is nearly complete *thankfully*. I just need to spend time re-encoding the song down to my desired bitrate, and I will be using the lovely WMA format since it compresses better than MP3. Muaha.

Anyway, so how’s my life going lately? It’s going great, aside from my grades. My grades plummetted with Exam grades like wow. So far, here’s how we’re reporting (Highest to lowest):
PE — 100 (Wasn’t this a given?)
Spanish — 77
English — 61
Government — 58

Not Reporting (Yet):
Geometry
Orchestra
Internship
Internship
Internship
(3 Classes)

So what’s up? Juan’s amazing I am happy that I met him, and happy that he IMed me. Whenever I talk mushy like this, I sound like I’m a 5th Grader (Reference 1: Zuri’s Xanga. Oops. Did I … type that out? :P)… But enough of that.

I was quite annoyed today this morning with my laptop. I hit it at least … 10 times or so. I felt like throwing it across the room, but I didn’t want to pay the $100 Deductible Fee.

You know, technology has progressed so much. Or has it? It seems that with every new technology, the number of problems multiplies two-fold in addition to whatever cool, new gadget was created. Take for example, networking. When it was first established (We call this invention the “Internet”; No I’m not treating you like a retard–it referred to when one computer sent a signal to another. K thanks) it worked just fine. One cable linked two computers. Now with all our “Reliable” connections, it seems that hardware manufacturers on the local and business (and not nation/worldwide) sectors are slacking. Laptops fail everyday at our school. Wireless networks go down at random. Computers crash. Regularly. Data loss isn’t just a possibility–it’s something to be expected. Old technology wasn’t as flimsy. Take my old cellphone. I do mean old–it’s at least 7 years old. It works great, though, and still has a beautiful, slick black finish. Looks aside, it functions perfectly, and does everything I need it to.

Cellphones with cameras? What are those used for? Snapping pictures of people that don’t want to have their picture taken so you can upload it to your voyeur site? Use it for your own personal “Entertainment” purposes? Buy a real camera, kidz. My phone has a 99-number address book. I know at least 70% of the numbers people keep in their phones are numbers they will never call again. “Whoa you have a lot of phone numbers”… I’ve said that to quite a few people, but think about it. Would anyone really have that much time to keep up with that many people?

Cell phone cameras aren’t some new revolution. They’re an already crappy technology (based on Web Cameras) made into a more compact form, without a flash, and ta-da! Enjoy your grainy pictures.

[[Currently Listening to: 2 Vibes ~ Sometimes (Club Mix) ]]
(Look for the link at the end of this post )

Anyway, I like decent pictures… so let’s have a semi-decent (non-grainy, I might add) picture.

“Still from Movie: Resident Evil”
[I hope you enjoyed that Juan :)]

So what if there was some sort of Apocalypse? There’s a few things that I haven’t shared with the general population. If you’re part of my usual crowd, this is regurgitated nonsense. To anyone who doesn’t know me well, or is just delving into my beautiful realm of unique blog-writing, WELCOME! *Hugs you*… No, really, I welcome you. I’m glad you chose to read something semi-worth reading your time.

More on the apocalypse bullshit that I could care less about. Oh Em Gee. We’re all going to die? Well, let’s see– we’re going to die anyway, but I’m going to take this two directions. First one–Why are people trying to predict when this is going to happen? What are they going to do? Wait– intermission. Little late, I know. What’s the meaning of “apocalypse?” There are longer meanings, but this one was to-the-point, and seemed fairly accurate:

“Actually meaning “unveiling” or “revelation,” this word is frequently used to describe the end of the world as we know it. Though many apocalyptic scenarios depict a terrifying, destructive end, some are rather gentle, having to do with the enlightenment of the human race or the dawning of a New Age. This term is also used to refer to the Book of Revelation.” — http://www.chrisnelson.net/endgloss.htm

With that in mind, why are we trying to discover the relative or exact date and time again…so that billions of people around the globe can forget about enjoying the last hours, days, months, years of their lives? How come the most complex questions deserve the most conservative (simple) rebuttles? Whatever.

Second direction–What would you do if… there was an apocalypse?

A lot of us have delayed what we’ve wanted to do. There will always be tomorrow. The world is full of procrastinators. I’m one of the biggest, if I do say so myself…

However, one thing I cannot stand… are liars.

I’ve terminated one of my best friendships officially; it seemed like it ended on bad terms… I was being really hissy, but that wasn’t because I wanted to. (As I already told Chris,) I just wanted an explanation.

I can’t stand when people lie, and hope they’ll get ahead… but in the end, lies get you back where you started, or worse. It’s an unfortunate reality, especially if the lies will never become truth. If it ain’t true, don’t tell someone otherwise. Even if you think it will benefit them. It doesn’t. It leads you and that person down a road of excessive destruction, quite unnecessary, if I might add.

In closing, I couldn’t be best friends with Chris anymore. He simply doesn’t have enough time to devote to other people and me simultaneously. I sincerely apologize to Chris for the long, drawn-out discussion that we had, and for David. I felt like talking to you since you have some common sense, and I know I yelled at you, but then again… that’s a usual thing. Don’t feel bad.

Today hasn’t been that great of a day. Thank God for Zack + Juan, and of course, Chris + Antonio, the people who could have been great friends, but simply failed in one way or another unwillingly.

That’s such a negative ending.

Let’s perk it up a bit:

Juan and Zack mean the world to me. Juan a slightly larger portion of it (:

As requested, here’s Media mentioned in this blog post:
Link to 2 Vibes ~ Sometimes (Club Mix)

With a subject like that, what’d you expect this to be rated?… Don’t cheat! Guess…

Rated TV-14 for Mature Content. Mild Language. Sexual References. A Dose of Reality. Were you Right? Huh?!

For anyone who doesn’t know, Finals are here and they’re hitting hard, for most of us.

This Thursday (which is probably when you will be reading this), I have three exams: Government, Spanish, and Algebra. Spanish is, unfortunately, one of the few classes that I’m actually considering studying for (and look at the time that I am saying this). Let’s hope I do good, but if I don’t, my grades are decent enough anyway…

Which reminds me, most of the people reading this blog are intelligent. You wouldn’t like this blog if you wanted mindless drivel. Presenting: http://xanga.com/saymynamebiatch
I have a little bit of a complaint, and some of you will catch on as to who I am talking to… actually, I have a few. Let’s put them all out on the table:
+I want to have sex with someone really hot;
+I want people to stop whining online, then act like everything is peachy in person;
+I want to learn how to drive;
+I want to stop talking to Chris;
+I want to talk to Gilbert more (Nimitz); finally,
+I want to figure out people.

I’m sure that last one will never be accomplished… but without further ado, let’s break it down.

+I want to have sex with someone really hot: If this one isn’t self-explanatory, you must have been sheltered from HBO and Cable TV in general all of your life. I normally talk about how I want to have a relationship with someone, and I definitely have that section down, but geez, I would just like to bang someone for no reason. Not really. I just want to bang people I have no possible chance of doing anything with. It makes my life slightly more interesting, without actually being interesting.

+I want people to stop whining online, then act like everything is peachy in person: Oh, this is one of my long-time wishes. Instead of hoping to lose weight, which is the most popular resolution item, I wished that people would just be themselves. I constantly find people faking who they are, and I would like to believe that I am not one of them.

If something is going wrong in my life, you better believe that I’m going to show it, or tell you, especially if it’s important. I’m not going to have some half-assed emotional breakdown then say everything is fine. You may be accepting facts, but are you exaggerating them?

When I talk like this, I’m not generalizing. I’m directing this towards you. Most of us have done this at least once.

“This is the worst feeling ever.” Or, “That’s the worst feeling ever.” Uh, WHAT? I hate that phrase. How do you know what the worst feeling in the world is? How long have you been alive? How many billion years? I’m just trying to say, if something is bad, then it sucks. That doesn’t mean, however, that you need to ruin what decent things you have in life.

It seems too often that we always want more from life. MORE MORE MORE. We’re greedy bastards… most of us. There are some people that easily are an exception to this rule. They know who they are. Then there are those who just are never satisfied. I may never be satisfied entirely, but I am definitely satisfied with what I have; I may always want something new or shiny, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to go around complaining, unless the word “need” is necessary. Too often, we misuse “need” in place of “want.”

Here, have my “What the hell” face: http://deviantart.com/deviation/13558148/

A preview:

ANYWAY.

I rambled about this to Jessica (scroll down a few posts for her picture)… She semi-agreed.

If you haven’t read this already, I like it when people come as themselves… in an individual case, “Come as you are.” Does this mean I’ll love you for how you are, regardless of who you are? NO! That isn’t the purpose. However, what if I do fall in love with you, and you’re being fake? Not only are you fake, you’re also f–k’d.

So as we’ve seen in this to-the-point post so far, being direct may pay off in the future. It’s not always the best tool if you want to slowly meet doom. It’s meant to quickly reduce the effects of an impending such.

+I want to learn how to drive: Now that Juan is my uber-awesome best friend… I need transportation. It’s great that he can usually get a ride over here, but he’s really nice so hey! I gotta get a car for muh boi ite?! Lol. That sounded lame, but I need to get a license, and quick. My mother wants me to take Dr Ed Classes. However, I prefer to not shell out $300 and instead take Defensive Driving for $25, and get a discount on insurance that way. Mother just doesn’t want to go through the hassle and whatnot… oh, well. (: We shall see.

+I want to stop talking to Chris: Well, there’s a reason behind this. Sometimes, you care about people so much, and they don’t really know how to show it back. Considering I’m an impatient person (Zack especially knows this), I’ve decided to not further waste my time. Yes, awwh indeed. I want to be cared about. Hence why I have Juan (:

+I want to talk to Gilbert more (Nimitz). He’s amusing. What can I say? I haven’t been able to find many people that can keep me as well-entertained on the phone as him…

+I want to figure out people: This is something that will inevitably happen when I’m dead. (Haha? Get it? No? OK.) Let’s face it, though, the more unique people are, the more interest you will have in each one, and in some more than others. If we were all equal, we’d all be equal to each other… that’d be no fun right?

Enjoy your Four-Day Weekend!

Now, some positiveness.

And, keeping it going…

Oh, a closing note.

I’m turning 18 soon [~3 weeks]. As soon as that happens I’ll know how to drive. Anyone up for going clubbin’ with me? Let’s dance (: ‘Tis All. [[Note to Self: Find a decent trance/techno DJ playing in a decent club relatively soon, within a month or so.]]

So I have a slither of free time. A few fun things are coming up, and some great things have happened, but bad things have happened, too… But all resolves, with time. (:

Rated TV-PG for Reality. Ouch!

So shall we go in chronological order? Well, first of all, an apology is in order.

I realize I’ve written short, crappy blogs, with (all be it) decent (sexy) pictures of people. My … semi-apologies. Anyway, I’ll try to whip something up to satisfy the masses. Forced is the worst, so the beginning may be a little rough, just like most of my posts.

As I delve into them, they get better. So let’s move along.

On Monday, I had forgotten my password. Winter breaks do that to you. I went down to the Campus Tech’s office I’m decent friends with them; I strain in using that word. Acquaintances is better, and I maintain a slight advantage over most students at the Academy. I went down there… and…

Brief Active Directory lesson!

Active Directory is that nifty little technology on Windows computers that logs you in, manages passwords, account securities, and 20 thousand over settings. Regardless, Domain Admins have the ability to change your password, lock your account out, and disable you from changing your password.

The CTs thought it would be funny to enable the “Disable user from changing password” option, and then reset my account, and changed my password to “paulisgod” (coincidentally, the name of my Campus Tech– the other one is named Robert). I said, “That’s too long!”… He decided to then change it to: “paulandrobertaremyidols”… How touching. I had to type that and they wouldn’t let me change it until Friday, so that was moderately amusing.

Also occurring, my digital camera was stolen. I first found out about this on Tuesday. It was recovered a few days later. You can view the page that I used when I had shut down my site here, permanently: (All pages pointed to this page) stolen.htm.

Too many people complain that I’m talking about my personal life. So I’ll leave that for the end of my rambling. Okay?!

You people, I assume, are here to learn something. Gooooooood. Unfortunately, I know I slipped into a sad stage of boringness lately. If you want to, you can view the latest Press entry regarding my blog: www.drnx.net/press_pass.php … All righty.

I was running dry on interesting things, so let’s do a beauteous injection of originality… A few random questions being answered tonight. Taking your calls, live!

Question from Antonio A.: Why do people use each other?

Granted, this was condensed from the original question, mainly for clarity. To say that people use each other solely for what they have (err, “only”), isn’t necessarily true. I’d like to think that… (Oh, what a beautiful classic start phrase. Let’s start again.) I’d like to think that I don’t really use people. At all. I always try to find my own way through life, without assistance. That said, however, I’m a really self-kept person, aside from my best friends… and the person who I’m going out with, which shall remain nameless to most people for now (with exception to about 2 right now, and those two people know who they are :P)… Moving on, though, a lot of people are materialistic (Juan got me using that word).

–Break– Currently Listening to: Brooklyn Bounce ~ X2X (We Want More –End/Break–

So why are people materialistic? Well, you could say that it’s because we’re all in a country where we eat not because we’re hungry, but because we can. Because there’s an unlimited amount of food here in America. Or, you can say because a lot of us have become spoiled, whether it be by our parents, our friends, our…selves? You can spoil yourself, too. More on that later.

Maybe a better reason that we are materialistic… It just satisfies us, but it doesn’t satisfy each other. How does that work? Let’s do a real-world example!

Here’s a fake AIM Convo (since we all love AIM, oh so much):
Dude1: Hey sup
TheMan2: Hey!
Dude1: What’s up?
TheMan2: Nm. So are you coming over today?
Dude1: Hell yea! It’ll be kick-ass … You still have that cool kick-ass bitchin’ p1mpinz0rin’ game from blockbuster that ‘u’ rented ‘rite’?!?!@#!?@@!?#!!?!!! I ‘wanna’ play that the whole time ite?!?!!

Ok, most people aren’t that direct, but let’s face it. Things like game consoles, fast, shiny computers, and money and cars get people interested in you. Why? I’m going to do a more home-grown complaint…

My clothes.

If you didn’t notice, people went insane (literally) on Monday when I showed up wearing my almost-too-tight-for-my-body shirt. It was a green shirt, and if you want, you can see pictures of me wearing it here (Be warned, I’m hideous…) chris2/. Interesting, right? Not.

Moving along, people thought that simply because I gathered a few new outfits, that suddenly, I was an interesting person that wanted to converse with the masses. Case in point, I rarely enjoy talking to anyone… Though I’m usually a person that’s easy to make smile, it doesn’t mean I’m actually enjoying myself. Too often I think, “What’s the point of this conversation? Does it serve any value to me? Will it in the future?” These questions normally make me out to be a really rude person…

But one thing I won’t do is talk to you based on what you wear, or who you hang out with, or what kind of car you drive, or what kind of game console you own.

This makes me weird, though, in some form or another.

It’s currently the next day since I started working on this entry… All righty then.

It makes me weird in that on some level, we’re all supposed to use each other or what someone else has, though I rarely like to do this. As I said before, I’m a fairly productive person without other’s assistance. This doesn’t mean I wouldn’t like some people’s help sometimes. In the distant past (OK, more than 3 years ago), I would ask people for things, and just to increase my chances that they would help me when I needed it, I would help them first. Sounds friendly, right? Either that, or I’m just trying to get my way, but let’s go with the former for now. Regardless, it didn’t help and I didn’t get assistance like I had wanted.

A lot of times, people will say things like “I don’t know” or “I’m not sure”, just because they don’t want to seem like they’re overly smart or overly knowledgeable in certain areas… That annoys me. Why can’t you just be yourself? It gets annoying when I’m trying to get answers, and I have to constantly squeeze them out of your brain. Do you think we got off-topic? Not necessarily. It all relates to how you think, so…

Using is Confusing. That’s for sure. However, it isn’t always bad. Having things that are usable between people can build friendships. It can also allow you to have a common starting (”launch”) ground so that your friendship may flourish… but of course, as with anything, there can always be too much of a good thing. Believe me– I know.

Enough on that suggested topic, however.

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I got rid of Alex’s question. It wasn’t something I wanted to cover. Better luck next time dude

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Looking in the wrong direction. That’s something a lot of us do, right? I have to be careful when I discuss this topic… People will think I am going in the wrong direction! I’m sure I am on some level, but at least, not related to what I’m about to discuss.

So what makes people friends with other people? Is it the fact that they’re both white? Both tall? Both funny? Both out-of-place? Both “Gothic” (which has been skewed–thnx much Hot Topic! Woot woot!)? Both the same age?… Regardless, everyone has their own collection of friends. We won’t yet delve into the strength of those friendships, or how accurate you label people… yet.

As you may know… I have 3… or 4 friends. 2 of them are iffy I can say this nicely because, well, nothing I say is actually mean. It’s just true. It isn’t meant to be insulting, so pardon me (:

My friends are (in NO particular order, AAA!): Zack, Juan, Chris, Farrakh. Whoo I love all those names. Regardless, I have each friend for a different reason. They all have something in common, though… They can all provide a fairly decent amount of conversation without boring me. Then there are the other “friends” I sort of have that aren’t really my friends, but then, that’s a confusing issue in itself, making this sentence even longer than you would have thought possible! They would include the lovely Antonio A., Tim, and others in the background like Rehan, Cal… etc. I think a lot of people have the idea that if you call someone your friend, it makes you their friend as well. Though this is how my friendship worked out with 3/4 of my actual friends listed (we won’t say which one is different, but if you keep reading, you will probably catch on), you will inevitably not be as lucky.

That’s how life is

Most of us screw up our potential chances, either by trying too much, or caring too much. Both of these can lead to a significant conflict of interest! (
Meanwhile, we’re not even trying other “potential” avenues of happiness. A lot of us don’t like change. Maybe because we sometimes associate change with a bad thing. Are changes bad? You learn from them, and sometimes, well… say, 50/50, changes are good. I won’t say how, but I’m sure that all changes are good for you.

Whenever something changes, this gives you a new experience, and I think that your greatest accomplishment should be life. I’m reminded of a questionnaire that Zack had given me, and that was one of the questions: “What do you think is your greatest accomplishment?” I’m not sure, but I believe it should be life. If you don’t think your life is your superior accomplishment, you must be doing something wrong. If you’ve read this blog since day one, get ready for some regurgitated content:

So what can you do? You can go out, make more friends, or simply become closer to the ones you have now. If people aren’t accepting you, you may be looking in the wrong direction. Then again, Catch-22: If they are accepting you, are they for the right reason–You?

Some people, like… David… figure out the last name, are satisfied with fake friends. People like that are satisfied that they have someone to turn to only when it’s in the other person’s convenience. Well, small wake-up call, but aside from putting ourselves before others, we should always be watching out for each other.

Too often, I’ll skip through Xangas (if you’re lucky, I’ll be reading yours =) and read comments after an emotional, tear-jerking [not] yet nauseating [true] entry, and they will say something like:

“Hey what’s up? I’m going to put some text here that doesn’t relate to you entry, but anyway, if you ever need ‘nething’ I’ll be here for ‘u’ ‘k’?”

I’m strongly against people saying this.

I don’t know how people in your same age group can possibly be there for you, unless they have a fair amount of experience with that subject, and that, unfortunately, is something a lot of us don’t have yet. Awwwh, relationship problems? I hope you aren’t turning to just anyone that comments on your Xanga. You’ll get uplifting advice. Translation? It’s shitty! Whooooo! “Don’t worry; it’ll be OK.” Heard that one before? It won’t be OK if you keep listening to that person’s advice…

So get some self-confidence. Get it from people, and not just yourself. You don’t want to seem too stuck-up, do you?

I believe that’s all I have time for, for now…

I could possibly do a little section for Articles again, but definitely not make it as complex as the last articles design. That was painful!

Till next time. Make some friends… Oh, and, don’t look in the wrong places. Just find the right reasons. (:

And, I only post clear, crisp pictures in the blog, so, Farrakh, get a decent digital camera. Thank you (:

I forgot to add… you can download the song I was listening to … I think it’s cruel and unusual punishment if you just list a song as “Currently Playing” or whatever, and not let the person reading listen to it, too. (:

Here’s the link to download:

mp3 link here.

I know I just got done writing a long entry. OK, not just, but I thought I’d add to it…

My lovely best friend Juan (I love you :)) was in San Antonio this weekend, and I really had loads of free time, and many boring things to do. I would have wanted to go with him, but I couldn’t! It sucked badly. Aside from that, my weekend was decent. I missed being with Juan, but that goes without saying. Till next time, when I put just a little of me into this endless article… of life. (:

This post isn’t worth reading, but anyway…

My site is restored, etc. I have my digital camera back. Thank you to everyone who helped me find it and distributed the link to my index.

As a reminder to everyone else, be careful with your valuables… that is all!

I love juan (:

Zack’s t3h man (:

Chris is t3h d000000d

That’s all. Just an update.

Comments work again… Ok.

I did some checking, and…

My digicam was stolen. More info here:

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And for some reason, I had to download the blog to my home comp, then post, then upload the posted entries file. Weird… : Shakes fist at webhost :

Another comforting thought.

You cannot leave comments. My webhost screwed up my space. YAY. I just put in a support request. Fun fun stuff.

Rated TV-PG for … Hand… Gestures.

I’m quite annoyed. With myself, mostly. Allow me to explain…

I think people get off on other’s unhappiness, disappointment, or regret, so you will love this blog post, I think.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I think I’m doing semi-better in my ability to socialize, but it still heavily lacks in the areas that need the most improvement.

I had a few conflicts today… One with someone from my past, quite a few months back. Think Canada. If you know what I’m talking about, you’re one of the “Experienced” blogreaders. If not, it’s OK being a Novice. (: You’ll learn and figure out, in good time, what makes my blog posts so special and intuitive.

First of all, let me state why I chose to make all 3 blog designs (homepage, dark, light) a more narrow style. The main reason is for easier reading. You may think that reading more lines is a greater task, but this is not so. It actually makes the task easier.

First of all, an injection of content from this morning:

It’s the start of a new day. Here we go.

Today is Monday, of course. One thing I forgot to mention earlier is the fact that I have a new wardrobe. Oh Em Gee. I haven’t done that in at least two years. Seriously! So, I went to American Eagle with my best friend Juan (: I had a $200 Budget… And I left with .21 Cents when I had left the Irving Mall property.

No, I didn’t spend it all on clothes. I had gone to a movie with Juan as well. We went and saw “Lemony Snicket: A Series of Unfortunate Events” or something along those lines. T’was a good movie.

This morning, I was slightly sticky. It had started raining for about 5 minutes. Our bus driver showed up late. I’m so pitiful… Some of you probably don’t know thtat I’m a senior! Haha. I’m like the only senior that rides the bus on the Academy campus. Not really, but still semi-pathetic.

I’m supposed to start driving lessons today. I need to call ABC to see if I can reserve a spot for me since the class starts today. I had forgotten to all week, and thankfully they have a voicemail system so I can leave a message whenever.

Anyway, give me feedback (preferrably in person)…

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Back to the present. So my night had been going sort of crummy. I hate it when I get into arguments…

On occasion, I will have arguments in which I care about the other person. Most of the time, I don’t care about them, but I will tell you which is the case for you. I promise.

When I argue because I care, this means that I’m trying to tell you the truth. Too often, people assume that because I’m being direct, it means I no longer want to, or no longer am, friends with them, which is really not the case. I’m not trying to make anyone’s life miserable. I just don’t like it when things are in the back of my head, and they are unresolved. You may notice that; I talk a lot, and explain a lot. I don’t want you getting the wrong idea from me.

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Another thing. I walked into my final class period of day. At least 7 girls complimented me within 30 seconds about how nice I looked. What’s with people? I change my clothes and suddenly, you stare at me, smile, and talk to me? This is weird ind33d. I don’t think I’m attractive anyway, but the clothes seem to be doing a damned good job.

I need to start getting paid for my internship. For anyone who doesn’t know, I am the Legal Webmaster (What the heck?!) for the Legal Team… Weird position. Anyway, I want money. It’s actually semi-intense work in that little room with no windows, ever since a teaher thought we stole all her food. Come on!

Anyway, closing the day, I spent my evening talking to Juan. It was quite relaxing, after having a roller-coaster ride of a day… which reminds me, here’s a shiny picture of a roller coaster:

Huh? Huh?! Ok.

I had too much fun with the camera. Have some AAA (Antonio):

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Now, since people have been waiting for pictures of Chris, ta…da!

Now, random pictures of my lovely friends in College Alg. (;

I hope you’ve had a thorough dose of images.

Right now, it’s finally Tuesday. Everything I wrote up there was from Monday or Sunday. Anyway, today is going really slow.

We’ll see if something can speed it up… It’s going to be a long one…

So, it’s that time again. I have seriously lacked in my oddly long journal entries. I didn’t die, though at times life can be like that… Lol.

All right. No emoness hurr’e.

Anyway…

Let’s talk about all the events that happened over the break.

Week One: I sat around at home. Boy, that was fun. I stared at thousands of digital camera models and did price comparisons on numerous models. Finally found the camera I want. That choice was overturned when I found a slightly priceier camera model, the R607. My original choice was the M407. I then found the R607 to be more appealing and definitely withing my price range. However, it was sold out solid at Circuit City, both online and in-store, by the time my mom made up her mind to buy it. So, instead of waiting indefintely, I bought the R707 which has a more advanced zoom (Yay?) and some other features. At least, I hope it has more features– I paid an extra $70 for it! It was (and still is) on sale at CC…

Christmas came… People visited, family visited. What the– did I just say FAMILY? Apparently, my mom has a niece that lives in Richardson. So her daughter and she came to visit. Fun fun. No, really.

Week Two: What happened? I met Juan, my awesome new friend. To keep you awake, have a picture of him:

= Juan! My best friend! I love you

And, here’s another special feature, the Rude IM of the Week!

Silly, Dirty Girl. Sinner!

More that happened… I just continue to enjoy life. I made a LIGHT blog design, for all those who don’t like dark colors. NEW THEME = “What’s Next?” Visit it at www.drnx.net/indexlight.php

And, finally, another thing. Don’t make an ocean out of a drop of water. Something I need to learn.

I love my best friends (in no particular order!) Chris, Juan, Zack! Take care, and to all… a good morning. Welcome to Monday.