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Rated TV-14 for Mature Language. Ground-Breaking Reality. Traumatic and Shocking! Discretion is barely advised.
This was originally from Friday:
I’m on my way to Nimitz right now, on the early bus. Loads of fun ind33d. Anyway, today was another really enjoyable day, aside from the fact that some people made me really mad. There wasn’t any reason for most of it.
So, basically, in PE, this girl (which I later found out has ‘mental issues’, according to @#$%@$ — censored for legal reasons) kept staring at me, and started saying ignorant things. I said my usual pep talk to the girls: “Let’s keep it going Ladies!” while they were doing aerobics. And she’s like “Why are you doing that?” and I was telling her because that was what was on the video (even though I wasn’t doing the aerobic part)… Nothing annoys me more than ignorant comments, so with that, I told her to turn around, then thank you. She didn’t turn around, and proceeded to say that I’m ugly. I told her, “And you’re skinny.” (both being either true or untrue, if she was right, and in which case, if I’m ugly, she’s fat, etc… I hope you get my point)… She didn’t back off. She said “I’m going to kick his ass afterschool” to some other girl which probably wasn’t paying attention to her. Me being my natural self, I yelled the PE teacher’s name, Mrs. Stewart, and said “TEACHER!! She’s threatening me!” (I sound so kiddish… I love it.) She said that I shouldn’t involve the rest of the class with my personal issues between only me and someone else.
After that, she moved, and she continued to say things of threatening context. I got sick of her, so I said, “I’m sorry, but I do not like obnoxious globules of fat.” With that, she walked up to me, proceeded to hit me, then kick me on the side, among saying “SAY IT TO MY FACE!!!” in a pathetically weak, yet attempted threatening manner. I made her cry. I feel bad. Not.
I’ve sort of left my conscience at home today, it seems. I have no regard for other people’s emotions today. I said someone else was too fat in front of one of my friends that I eat lunch with, and he’s not the skinniest person on earth. Is that in itself a rude comment? I hope not…
During English, I really lost it. I was trying to connect my internet cable to various outlets in the room since the one in the middle of the room wasn’t working. Well, I asked these people at the table next to us to switch seats, and she didn’t even ask why. She just said, “No” because she’d have to move her AC Adapter connection from one outlet to another. Boo-Hoo? I just lost it. Then the other guy at the table was saying really pointless things that just made it worse. And I was like, “Fuck it. You don’t want to help but it’s going to come back up and fuck you in the ass. Not literally. But maybe literally, since 1 out of every 3 women are sexually assaulted so you might get lucky.” When I say “I was like”, I wasn’t saying this directly to them. Sometimes I’m just so annoyed that I have to express things aloud–my apologies.
Tell me, was I annoyed or not?
–Now on to Saturday. And a mix with today.–
Saturday was all right. I went to All-Region tryouts (for Orchestra) an hour early, around 10:30. I stayed there until 3:00, which was rather late… we had not actually started until 1:30PM or so, and they crammed 25 participants into one room. We had to each play four cuts. I screwed up badly on the first one, and the second one, well, I was just making things up. On the third and fourth, however, I didn’t sound that bad and at the end of the fourth one (and final) I began to laugh. I was that entertained by how badly I sucked.
I ran into someone that had the name CALIXTO. How incredibly awesome is that name? It is so awesome that I would marry it (among other things) if it was a human, simply because of that name.
I loved it so much that I went out and bought myself two happy little domain names:
www.calixto.name
www.calixto.info
They all point to the homepage of my site but I will change that eventually… I am planning on changing my name to that once I get out of college. Anyone disagree? Good (:
All-Region gave me a wake-up call that I really do need to do better in Orchestra. I’m sure that, with just a few hours of practice, I would sound much better. I need to buy a little tuner so that I know my pitch is right. A lot of times, I think I’m right, but sometimes I’m usually off by a very small (but still noticeable) amount.
For anyone who *doesn’t* know, I’m still in Orchestra at Nimitz and play the violin. I made 12th place at All-City… let’s see what I make in Region. Ha. I won’t make it. I know I won’t. And if I do, I hate being 2nd Violin! They get no interesting melody, but that’s all for that.
Yesterday, someone actually left me a message, my little brother (not factually or actually) Antonio. No one’s actually *left* a message in years… 4 to be exact? Unless it was school-related… but yes, people do call me, despite my extreme inclination to not be social 
I say that I am not social not because I don’t want to be, but I’m guessing because most people automatically assume that I don’t want to talk to them. For whatever reason, I don’t know. Maybe because I’m not skinny? I watched a special on a spanish channel about how these skinny people went out to separate places. One faked as if she needed to fix a flat tire on the side of the road, and the other went to a club. The woman (with the flat) had numerous guys come up to help her, whereas the guy (in the club) danced with 7+ girls within an hour.
When they added the extra 50lbs. to make them appear obese (Obese=30lbs or more overweight), no one stopped to help the woman, and as for the guy, no one even wanted to get near them.
It’s so ironic, because they were both so fashion-conscious, and even though the guy is straight, they both inevitably ended up crying because the experience was so horrid.
Now you all understand with what I’ve had to deal with for so long, and most of you know this by now… Appearance of someone matters more than what is on the inside.
I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before, but I’ll say it again. If I do choose anyone, it’ll be based on this simple scale:
51% Intelligence,
49% Looks.
Basically, if you are courteous (which requires a large amount of intelligence) and know how to hold conversations (ditto), and I can tell that you’ve utilized your brain more often than the moon is blue, you will pass my test. If, however, you are drop-dead gorgeous but have a lack of ability in the social interaction/in-depth conversation department (and I don’t mean simply being able to walk up to someone and start talking about what they’re wearing, the weather, how they are, simple little middle-school things to get a date, basically) then you will be told, hopefully nicely, by me, that you are not good enough. Oh, and, one more thing, you can’t use drugs regularly, unless it’s Ecstasy (: (You’d be surprised by how many people misspell that.)
I have a feeling that I’ve become somewhat more socially acceptable. Some poeple still act spontaneously against me (for example, refusing my hug) and that, of course, makes me feel bad… another instance was when I didn’t bring money to the All-Region tryout.
I hadn’t expected on staying that long, and they started selling pizza. Well, I asked a few people for money, and 2 of them had some but refused to give it to me. I acted like it was no big deal to them (except for one who refused then offered 30 minutes later after which I told him to go away quite loudly) but deep down, I felt as if I wasn’t important enough or human enough to get a few dollars to eat from someone.
People have become such greedy little bastards lately. I have a huge, huge habit of giving my money away to other people, especially if they need it. In most instances, they don’t *need* it, but if someone did, I’d try my best to make sure that they had what they DID need. As for these people, which were in my own orchestra, that’s just a total lack of disrespect. Here’s this fat guy, weighing like 30 lbs. more than me, and here’s me, asking for some food while he fills his face up. I got so pissed off. I’m sorry, but I can’t tolerate people’s lack of emotions and their lack of ability to put themselves in the place of someone else.
ARGH, enough whining from me.
So last night I stayed up late, looking at faceplates and all the other good stuff that goes with cars, like speakers, and, well, cars themselves. Went to bed around 11:30, which was too late. I was supposed to go driving in the morning (today, Sunday) so that I can get a driver’s license just a bit sooner, buuuuut…
Krystal told me last night on the phone (around 10:43PM) that it takes 6 months just to process the paperwork and another 6 so that I actually get a license, so that’s going to be totally pointless. I guess I will have to WAIT to get a job until February.
I received a “Fake Internship” with the Legal Team @ ACAD. I basically get to design the website for the Legal Program, which would be interactive to a very high level, as far as viewing which classes (excuse me, lawyers) have trials and when in the mock trial room (excuse me– court. , and transcripts of the court reporters. I had done that, personally, on my own time, last January-March. I was really bored, and enjoyed court-reporting.
We’re also planning on mixing in videos to the site with the Law students as they do the mock-Court-TV-style interviews and such. It should be a rather large undertaking. I just hope my teacher doesn’t read this part… I hope I get paid! I need money. My mom is no longer working overtime, and my grandmother is leaving on Monday, so that means we won’t be spending extra on garage sales, clothes, food, and cooling costs *whew*… but, I would still really appreciate getting a job as far as it being during school. Especially for what they’re asking. That sounds like I should make between $400 to $1,000 because of all the interactivity going on.
All right. I’ll let all you guys rest while I look at new stereos, speakers, cars, and then figuring out how I’ll pay for all of it.
Zack’s muh buddy! (:
**Added @ 1:41PM** I posted this on my online-friend-buddy’s Xanga… I thought it had some relevance to being greedy, so without further ado….
Without me thinking too deep (my brain may explode), you mentioned something interesting about spending extravagently for something which, when compared to eternity, really isn’t long at all.
When you say “good”, though, a lot of us interpet that to exactly what you don’t want: money, cool shiny clothes, cars, electronics, and of course, a very very nice pair of shoes.
I think it just keeps us occupied. If cars and all that stuff did NOT exist, ta-da! we would be a third-world country.
Why not take advantage of the stuff you have?
Now, to whine over things you don’t have, after already living in a house with a roof, and an expensive TV, computer, blah blah blah (cars, etc.), that is something that nauseates me.
Even with clothes, though, you can (for example) go on eBay and get a preppy, classy AE shirt for about $10. Go figure.
Just as we’re trying to look more extravagent, there are ways to do it for less money. In reality, we don’t *want* to spend money. A lot of people feel that such is what makes them happy.
I personally think that a good personal conversation with just about anyone is worth way more than the hot Acura RSX that I want *Drools* … Just kidding (:
It’s always… nice to dream… but when our dreams get in the way of reality, what life are we really living?
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