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Rated TV-PG for Mild Adult Language.

No it’s a good head-banging. I can’t even read what I’m typing, so I’ll just type with my eyes closed. So, I keep exercising since I am fat (And Devin disagrees lmao too nice.) Anyway, I’ve lost about a pound in a week? I need to stick to my ‘exercise’ plan though. It’s about 50-60 minutes per day, exercising to 140-160bpm music, no lower than 144 really, aaaaaaand I did 160bpm today. I didn’t realize the mix was over. I call it the “Chris Cox Provocative Trance/Techno4Ever Diet”… Chris can be found occasionally on www.di.fm ‘s stations and the rest of the good shiznat can be found at www.t4e.fm. T4E loves mixing at higher-than-normal speeds, so it should keep you awake! I really do need to exercise more. It keeps me happy, and more importantly, busy. Oh, and I lose weight, too, that’s most important at the moment…

I’m generally annoyed with Tim… I think I found out something really creepy about him. Oh well. Oh, and Gilbert keeps calling me, even though he annoyed me… when will people learn? He’s called more than 5 times, at least once per day in the last few days. If I don’t call you back, don’t call me back. Ding ding! I hope I hear gears moving. I hate the phone anyway. BLAH.

I relax now, unsatisifed with my future. I am probably not going to get a job this summer, and I am annoyed in general. I guess a few people caused it, but only because I’m confused about it. I don’t have time for it tonight. More working for free tomorrow. Until next time…

Rated TV-PG. How can you people… be so annoyingly happy? You seem all cheery. It’s pissing me off.

I don’t even feel like pasting logs or talking. TILL TOMORROW.

Tonight, it’s a special no-holds-barred DRNx Blog Presentation. I’m not angry, since most people are used to seeing the TV-MA and think “Oh hey he’s pi**ed off!” Anyway, Enjoy the Show. Viewer Discretion is Advised.

Rated TV-MA for Adult Language. Adult Content. Sexual Content. Reader Discretion is Advised.

Before you read my rambling for today, first, a short conversion… Guess with whom.
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intelligence boi: good morning
intelligence boi: lol
rehan85: so
rehan85: yes
intelligence boi: hehe
intelligence boi: so you’re 10 hrs ahead of me
rehan85: what tiem is it over there
intelligence boi: how does it feel to be living in the future
intelligence boi: lol
intelligence boi: 12:45m
intelligence boi: am*
rehan85: lol, “IN THE FUTURE”
intelligence boi: You are my future
rehan85: trust me, this is NOT the future
intelligence boi: err, y ou are in my future. now get out.
intelligence boi: j/k
intelligence boi: Hah. I gathered.
intelligence boi: When you said 28-gay, I was like, soo not-future-ish
rehan85: lol
rehan85: yea, it’s more like BACK in the future
intelligence boi: LMFAO
intelligence boi: hahaha.
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Well, that was lovely. I talked to Rehan for a bit, right… And uhh… Iunno. He was on a 28.8k Modem–with a 15″ Monitor, so that’s gotta suck. Speaking of monitors, I’m going to buy a new one. http://www-132.ibm.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?partNumber=6736HB0&catalogId=-840&langId=-1&storeId=1 if you want to be a part of my $1,100 LCD Monitor. *Goes into Witness Protection Program* You ain’t gettin’ a piece of this, bee-atch. Now, my only question is… why the hell does the URL have www-132 ? That’s so … out of place, especially for IBM’s website.

Wooo, I finally saw the Matrix today/yesterday, whatever day it is now. I don’t know. I think Rehan’s pleased about it, since he was like “Wtf” when he first realized I hadn’t seen any LOTR of Matrix-es even years after they had first come out… I still can’t watch the first LOTR since it was “out of stock” when I had ordered it, but it’s being shipped “ASAP”, according to the company I bought it from.

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I have just returned from an hour of exercise. It’s about 3:05 in the morning. Now to continue my ramblings… I guess.

I forgot what I was rambling about.. Let me re-read what I have written. Oh!

I saw “Traffic” tonight… Rated “R”, KIDS! You know they have this new program starting in Illinois and Missouri I think. It’s called “The ‘R’ Card”, where underage people can view movies without an adult present, simply by the parent signing a per-movie form saying the child can attend on their own free will. Personally, I am a strong supporter of the “PARENTAL ADVISORY” label on CDs and the MPAA and TV Ratings System. We’re one of the few countries in the world that believes in controlling what certain ages view, and I could never be more for that than I am now. I believe those ratings are in place for a reason, and some fucking state should not randomly decide to turn over a governmental organization, saying that it’s OK for a kid to go see an “R” rated movie, without the parent even knowing what’s in the movie yet, and say it’s OK. Bullshit.

Anyway, let’s move on to sex. Oh what a fun, steamy, juicy, wet, sexy (! of course!) topic. It annoys me. But, before we get to that fuckable topic, let’s move onto something a bit more important.

WHAT?! SEX ISN’T IMPORTANT?! *FAINTS* Stand by, Sexbeast. We’ll get to you later on. What I want to discuss, is, connecting with someone, and more importantly, communication with that someone. Regardless of who that someone is, whether it be a boyfriend, girlfriend, best friend, ‘friend’ with benefits, or just a friend that you talk to on occasion, communication is an extremely important factor, and frankly, one that is being lost in the sheets of our beds. I may exaggerate slightly, but what I bring to your big digital internet plate is true, and fair, and balanced… I’m starting to sound like FOX News Channel (Screw CNN!)

I don’t know. Sex seems like such a FUN FUN fucking thing doesn’t it? I use “fuck” in the sexual sense. You know, the kind that the “FCC” doesn’t allow Howard Stern to say on any (free/public) broadcast medium? Anyway, sex is fun, sure. I’m not going to waste my time telling you the risks, physically. Babies, STDs, (let’s go into brief detail kids!) AIDS, HIV, Syphilis, and Herpes (what a beautiful ring that one has to it!), and so much more… Is it really worth the risk? Well, that isn’t all you are risking. You are really risking the rest of your life, and your happiness. And, like I said, NOT, just, physically.

Sex, in the past, was not shown and splashed all over advertisements, TV, media, movies, whatnot. It was a very taboo subject, as seen in that one movie where all the people gradually turn from black and white into color…

We want a special connection with someone. Some of us may want to go stereotypical and only go with the opposite sex. Some of us may go “trendy” and go with the same sex, and go beyond a “special” connection to a “physical” internal connection–Ugh–Disturbing/Disgusting. But, let’s not go there yet… Why do we even want sex? Hell if I know, but I’ve done a few things, seen a lot of things, and heard a lot of stories to know a pretty damned decent amount on this subject, and why you should wait.

Any relationship that I was in that involved sex, was only sex. Sure you run those thoughts which violate my golden quote (“False Hope Leads to True Tragedy”–FINALLY see what it’s for now, folks? It applies to more than just s3ks though)… “____ loves me for who I am, what we do together, what we have in common, not just for the sex, it wasn’t even about the sex”… I’ve heard this from waaaaaaaay too many people, and frankly, you’re all bullshitters. If you’ve had sex already NOW, what the HELL is there left for your future? Does this mean, hey, you there, cut off all of your interaction with whoever you are attracted to!? No! It means, BACK OFF DAMMIT.

BUT WHY?! I still haven’t made my point yet, or maybe I have and you saw it already. Just you! Anyway…

Communication. What a lovely word. No matter what kind of relationship we are in, it needs to be based on that. Having sex at an early age can cause the relationship to simply BE based on sex. You should not have sex until you’ve gotten to know someone VERY WELL. Oh, don’t tell me you DID get to know someone very well and then you broke up, because you’re just telling me you fucked them, they liked it, so did you, and then you started getting personal with each other (that’s right! AFTER you lost your virginity and possibly got diseases from someone you hadn’t gotten personal with before yet) and then it ended because you were too different from each other. The problem wasn’t that you were just too different, or had nothing in common. It was that you had ruined the chances that you could have anything in common, by ending it all before it could even have a chance to be born…

Side-note: This isn’t a story about me, or anyone. I hope you aren’t over there sobbing, thinking some poor soul is all depressed… well; at least someone is, so keep crying.

Final Side-note/Closing thought-final-post-shit: I’m here to listen to anyone’s relationship problems. I may seem anti-social, and cynical, but hell, who said that was true? IM me on Intelligenceboi and let’s solve some problems.

I was thinking about calling Antonio… but he called me today! Woot. It’s so odd. We fight and complain so much, but we remain friends. While on the phone, he wanted me to make a blog entry for _him_… so… http://demoninc.org/BLOG is his new domain. Again, I’m not responsible for its content. Anyway…

Today I spent 2-3 hours prepping the bathtub to be painted, by removing hardware, cleaning it, surface-cleaning it with sulfide/sodium, then rinse, then sand, then rinse, then rub with cloth, then dry. I have to wait until tomorrow before I can start putting the first of 3 coats of paint. FUN is ahead! I can just feel it. I enjoyed the rain today. Overall my week has been somewhat tiring, and I yearn for a job. My friend David (which I talked to a bit today… read about him in an earlier blog somewhere if you want) got one as a lifeguard… he’s making like $550 every two weeks? I want something like that…

And… If you didnâ??t watch â??Nip/Tuckâ? last year, you missed the following: breast implants filled with heroin, a 16-year-old boy attempting a do-it-yourself circumcision, one of our surgical heroes trading his girlfriend for a Lamborghini, a mother walking in on a teenage threesome, a woman with multiple personalities who all want different plastic surgeries, and so much more. Yes, itâ??s a soap opera and a guilty pleasure â?? with a capital “g” and “p” – but if youâ??re not watching “Nip/Tuck” you’re missing out on one of the true pleasures summer television has to offer. Lucky for you, the new season just started. Catch it every Tuesday on FX at 9PM CDT/10PM ET. Rated TV-MA for AL, S, V.

Hmm, tonight’s closing thought… It’s so odd, we all say we want to try new things, but perhaps we’re trying the wrong thing(s). Are those new things hurting us? Ruining our future? That phrase wasn’t meant to be abused by drugs, alcohol, and yes, even sex. Don’t get me wrong. Some of these are OK, at the right time, but if you’re doing it for the wrong reasons you could be killing yourself, or ruining the rest of your LIFE. The decisions you make, especially teen years, truly do affect your entire future. Unfortunately, most of these decisions are misled by what others think… and frankly, if you’re thinking more in respect to what they would think, who are they getting their thoughts from? Magazines? Media? Porn sites? Frankly, most of us don’t know why we think what we think.

Are we born like this? Do we know what our destiny is? Do we _already_ know what choices we are going to make? Are we simply trying to figure the reasons of why we made them, out? Sorry, I saw the first Matrix movie for the first time today. I’m still sort of stuck in that thinking.

But seriously, who’s doing the thinking for us? We need to think for ourselves. Trends, fads, happen for a reason. Not because they are trying to be different, but because they are locking everyone together preventing them from being original. Are you trying to say you are original? Do you say you are random? It’s probably, forced, and, therefore, unrandom, so to speak. YOU ARE NOT ORIGINAL. Become original, how, you might ask?

First of all, I want you to think for yourself. Don’t try to think about what others will think about you first. How else will you possibly voice what you think? Don’t voice what you think and you’ll be living in someone else’s world, viewing it from their perspective. The point is, you are ORIGINAL IF YOU FOLLOW YOUR OWN MIND. Following other people, their ways, patterns, orientations, beliefs, may be fine, as long as you analyze them before going along with it, simply because you think “everyone else is doing it”, so you should, too. I like to think that I am original, but who knows? I try to come up with my own thinking. I think that’s what keeps me safe. Thinking everything out, especially before whatever I’m thinking about even happens. Being prepared, that’s what it’s all about. Being prepared, and figuring it out.

I unfortunately use a very technical writing style, so if you don’t follow, I’ll explain myself or answer any questions you may have… Intelligenceboi is my SN. Till next time, enjoy YOUR mind.

Rated TV-PG for Mild Language.

OK, topics for tonight, in this order. Work, DVDs, Antonio, Zack, Rehan, Porn (Kidding). Then, tomorrow, and Lance. Then, thefoxbox’s closing thought.

Anyway…
Work. Right. Someone, a clerk, said I had hung up on someone then they called back and complained to them. That’s total crap. I hate people who lie, screw them.

DVDs… got 5 in the mail for $2.60!! Each DVD was about 49 or 50 cents + 4 cents shipping…. 4 more arrive tomorrow. Too happy.

Antonio… awww my little brother. I love him to death, and I was thinking about calling him, but… Iunno, I thought he didn’t want to talk to me. So we started watching The “Matrix” (we haven’t seen any of the Matrix-es or LOTRs yet!)… and the phone rang. He called me twice. I love him. But I hate phones. I’ll call him tomorrow.

I don’t have work tomorrow.

Zack is awesome. Not much to report there. The complaint yesterday was me rambling–nothing to worry about… Moving on..

Rehan REPLIED TO MY EMAIL! He has arrived in Paki after flying for more than a day…. left Tuesday, arrived today! He’s doing good. I hope I’ll be able to talk to him more.

(If you haven’t noticed I typed this all out in the order it happened.)

Tomorrow I have to do a few crappy Home Improvement things to keep me busy, like sanding my tub and painting it. It is this HIDEOUS Avocado Green, and since our house was built in the 70′s, that was all the color-spectrum rage back then.

LANCE did not call me. I’m moderately disappointed. I’ll call him tomorrow, like I said I would if he didn’t call me… maybe there’s a good reason.

I guess, now I’ll give a closing thought. With the emergence of technology, and all the new products, ideas, being developed for us, we have diminished the amount of time we have to interact with and care for others. We all worry about what other people think about us, and we never even think about ourselves either. So, who are we really caring about? The other people who are too busy to care about themselves, too? Have we become a society that wants others to care for them, but part of one that doesn’t give it? What will happen because of this?…

Think about something. Have a good night and I hope you’re enjoying your summer.

So, I still feel sick. I don’t know WHY! I keep trying to get more and more sleep, but that doesn’t really seem to be working. I’ve tried a few preventative measures. I actually went to sleep earlier yesterday. I covered my computer and stopped resting my feet on my hot UPS to prevent me from getting too overheated. I think I will make a little blog post tonight about everyone I’ve thought of in the past week, in no particular order, and most likely because of paricular events. I know a lot of times, I just whine, or complain, or post some special thing, but, I guess, for once, I can be thankful, just a bit. I should… I will list my best friends first. Aaron and Zack (like I said, no particular order ), gotta love ‘em. Moving on… there’s Ariel. She is pretty entertaining (when she talks) and I’ve gotten to know her just a bit better I guess. And then, of course… Devin, Lance, Antonio, erm, other… people. Right…

Anyway, I got this random IM (supposedly) from someone whose girlfriend I had supposedly been hitting on, argued with them and was pasting the conversation to a few other people, getting them aggrevated too, and then realized it was my best friend’s cousin doing it to me while Zack was there. Yeah, then Zack said, after I had said “and don’t do it again”, something that suggested he might do it again, so I just blocked whoever’s Screen Name that was. I don’t put up with crap from anyone. I thought even my best friend knew I wasn’t an incredibly nice person.

Hopefully I can fall asleep sooner tonight… G’nite.

——Added @ 11:29 PM – 6/23/04——
Right, LANCE FINALLY CAME BACK, after me waiting an hour and a half. He will call tomorrow and he might come over on Friday… Hopefully. That’s my day off from ‘work’, so he can probably make me less bored than I would have been. We’ll see. And, the night didn’t end that bad. Before you read this, you may be shocked. So, get ready to gasp, but breathe deeply before reading the following.

Amanda actually isn’t that bad of a person. In fact, I don’t really mind her. OMGOMG like w0ah. Tonight I actually enjoyed talking to her more than Zack. Go figure. Am I finally balancing out?… *faints*

—–Added @ 11:59PM – 6/23/04—–
CRAP! I FORGOT ABOUT REHAN! I mean, in this blog. I really do miss him as a person, you sick people. DAMN he needs to reply to my e-mail… done for today/night.

Oh, and…

When the Sasser worm was scaring everyone I read a CNN article, stating that it was targeting more operating systems than it actually was.. I took a screenshot of it before I reported it but never went to look back. Notice the underlined portion and dates. Glad I made a difference! This is why I don’t like CNN.

Out!

One of those days that you enjoyed, but something wasn’t right. Not much for today. Maybe tomorrow.

“Resisting temptation is easier when you think you’ll probably get another chance later on.” -ChadP(.net)

I wasn’t able to go to sleep before 2AM last night, and I had to get up at 6AM, so obviously that wasn’t very nice. I went to sleep around 6:30 tonight when I came home, mainly because my internet wasn’t working, and secondly because I was tired.

I ate pizza before I did, and my body wasn’t very happy. I felt really warm and as if I had a cold. I do feel a little better, but I rarely let sickeness get in my way. You don’t get 8 years perfect attendance if you give in every time you feel sick. Anyway, I have returned but Zack isn’t talking Iunno, he’s probably wandering around. Heh.

Wooo he’s talking now. Mk. Well, Rehan’s most likely either leaving tonight or tomorrow early morning to go fly away! You can read the comment he posted on my previous post of what he said: http://drnx.net/index.php?id=40d6668b94f37 or, if you like light colors: http://drnx.net/indexlight.php?id=40d6668b94f37 .

I forgot to mention my webhosting idea. You can have a preview of the plans below:

These plans are for promotional Beta presentation/representation only. Offers, fees, and promotions to change at any time.

www.drnx.net/press_pass.php?id=8 for more information on this. G’bye for now!

===Addendum to my Blog=== …
OK, I opened this back up to Edit and Add something to it. Crazzap. OH.

I’m going to add a new section to the site. A “WEEKLY THOUGHT”, as I did with my old website. I basically ramble on in graphic detail about my topic, usually suitable for mature audiences only. We’ll see. Maybe we’ll have a Kidz Section!… Not. That’s all for now.