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Well, I think I am being slowly more and more fed up with AIM. It has just become so boring and so uninteresting… I really don’t even feel like using it anymore, so, if you want to talk to me, and you already have my number, please feel free to call me at home. If a guy answers, it’s me. I talked to my zackiedudeboibuddyperson on the phone today, and it was ite. I had to leave to eat dinner and do things and whatnot, but I am just glad thatI finally got my cable internet back! Woo. Excitedness=Me. Anyway, the weekend was sort of boring, but overall I guess it could have been worse, right?

I think the way I think is starting to rub off on some people. That makes me less original. But, imitation is the most sincere form of flattery. A perfect example can be seen in this Motley Fool article I received in my inbox a few days ago, entitled “Dueling Fools: XM vs. Sirius”:
“Remarkably, there are ways in which XM is already imitating Sirius. From the start, Sirius offered commercial-free music. In February, XM converted to this format. If flattery is the most sincere compliment, then consider Sirius complimented! Not explained in the move was why XM pricing remained at $9.95 a month.

After all, Sirius charges $12.95, and XM was to make up the difference with advertising. With advertising off the table, and Sirius offering an equally strong lineup, XM has to wonder what it will do if Sirius ever pulls up even in subscribers. Let’s say that number is 3 million. That $108 million in additional revenue Sirius would earn — for the same customer base. That is a strong competitive advantage if it materializes. As will be video revenue when it starts to flow.

The bottom line
Assuming that Sirius manages just 40% of the market — and video produces nil — total revenue, at an average $11.90 per subscriber, would be $1.2 billion. XM Satellite, meanwhile, would bring in $1.3 billion at $9 a subscriber. Clearly, that pricing difference is a big equalizer. If sales fall 60% in Sirius’ favor, revenue would be $1.7 billion for Sirius and $864 million for XM. That’s a big difference.

Sirius is the premium priced product with what appears to be premium content. Trying to guess future sales and adoption rates is an interesting exercise. Unfortunately, for shareholders of satellite radio companies, that guess is about all you’ve got — at least until visibility improves and results become more focused in 2005.

Invest at your own risk; write off Sirius at your own peril.” –Sorry, a little bit of stock rambling for you. Buy some SIRI (its ticker symbol) today! Out! I

I made this entry a day ahead of time, ekspecting that my internet is not working, and that I have no more hours left. I would just like to say that I probably talked to Zackie on the phone, and if I did, I enjoyed it!

I don’t know how much we appreciate people, and I think that we appreciate them less and less as we go on through life. We think that people will always be here for us, for you. Yes, as I stated in a few blog entries earlier, you must take risks in life, but this does not mean risks with friendships. Now, unfortunately, with the strong emergence of technology and the internet, our minds are even less focused, and we make decisions in even less time. Because of this, I believe that it carries over into our personal lives; obviously, it does, because technology is such a strong focal point in our every action. What does this mean?

This means we don’t think about what we say. What we do. Who we are hurting. Who we are putting first. Why we are going about our lives. How we are going about it. All these are questions we now put less and less thought into. I must admit it. I rarely put any thought into things I say. Maybe because I’ve trained what I say so perfectly that I can probably get away with anything, and not have people realize that I’ve done anything offensive, or ‘wrong’, whatever you consider wrong.

Another thing people think of me, is that I don’t think before I act. Well, I have something to tell you about that one. I damn well think before I act. It’s just that people do not give the desired response. That makes me seem like a smart-ass, but that’s because you’re not giving me the intended response. I’m saying that I like to think people are nicer and more accepting than they usually are. Some people just give ME the response they think is right, and respectful, but I may interpret it totally different. I know that may be a problem, but it seems to have become much more prevalent lately and should be addressed. No one’s addressing it. But at least try and remember something from what I’m about to say…

We all want to care for someone, right? Well, if we don’t, then how can we ekspect anyone to care for or about us? You’re not going to say I make no sense, right? Well, I think that, in closing, a lot of us need to make more though-out decisions, even with little things. Because, as we all know, it’s the little things that count most. >>Little thing: I love you Zack!
Have fun, everyone. I will speak to you in person, or on AIM, or on the phone, or something. Have a nice night/day

Wow, I want to an orchestra banquet thing tonight. Came home soaked (balloon fight) around 11:15PM. Not much to say about today. Pretty uneventful… Goodnight!

I just don’t. I’m more annoyed than ever before. And tired, too. raWr.

For Adult Language/Adult Content.

So I am here, waiting for my mother to get off the phone so I can talk to muh buddy Zack right? well, let me tell Notepad (which is where I first typed this blog entry) a story.

I got online, and Antonio did his normal routine of not saying hello to me, but instead saying something stupid. Yay. I love being stupidly entertained (not). So he tells me that this guy who had been wanting space was finally on AIM, so before he got any I needed to talk to him at first. He didn’t actually say anything at first, and when I asked him a simple question about why he wanted space, he replied with “why does anyone want space?” I was like, wow. Here I am, paying $4 per month, and making sure everything is working, and constantly trying to find new scripts and technology to make your online experience to my site easier, right? Well, I was like, you’re a sarcastic ass aren’t you? And I told him he got no webspace. So then my uberly stupid friend Antonio (you know you’re gay) said that he is a ‘geneous’ (wow, I guess Antonio’s onee off them dern thengs too!) and so I decided to IM him again. Well, we talked for a bit, and I finally agreed to giving him space. I got as far as setting up his user account with webmail/ftp/cgi, and had to reconfig his subdomain. Since I have dialup, it takes longer to do these things. So I got onto my domain name control panel (on a different site; it isn’t automatically updated, so there is something else to configure! WOOHOO!) and then added his NEW subdomain, since he wanted a different name and I was fine with that. So *poof* I did that and I was trying to ask him if he could successfully log into FTP, after I had to re-explain that the username was the same for FTP as it was for his subdomain. Right… so after he (maybe?) listened the second time, I was telling him something else, and then after that, asked him if he could succesfully log in. I didn’t get a response. I typed “hello” about 6 times, on separate lines, then about 5 or so minutes later, I typed “thanks for replying.” This asshole then replied with “your welcome.” Little bitch can’t even spell “YOU’RE” RIGHT GOOD GOD! Then he says he got disconnected. well, gee, you could have told me when you got back online, smart boy. I was at first wondering why he would choose to associate with Antonio because he did seem smart.

After talking to him, I completely understood why. They could be identical online twins!

Then, because of this, I was annoyed (nah really?!). Then muh ub3r zackie got on and I was sort of agitated towards him. There is nothing that hurts more than me being rude to the people I care about and love most, because of someone else’s idiotic actions. I do not know why people with such low levels of respect exist. They certainly aren’t bettering anyone’s lives, with exception to maybe another idiot’s. I know it seems wrong but I would like to apologize for being so mean to zackieboi! I am sure he understands but even he could tell that I was out-of-line, plus my mother was standing behind me, asking me questions, which so did not help.

In closing, so far, this evening has not gone too spectacularly, and you know what? You probably don’t give a shit. Have a nice night! I love just bitching. It helps me get over my problem faster.

Awww! Zack! Gotta love him!…. Now on with the blog post…

Lately, people have been having quite a few problems with other people, and frankly I think it’s gotten out of hand. Some people take advantage of others. Some don’t listen, or think about how someone else would feel. I think I am notorious with that, when it coems to certain people. I just don’t really care about what they have to say. I don’t really think they have anything valuable to say. Sometimes I just don’t want to listen to anyone, but then I realize…

Most of them didn’t do anything wrong. So who is really getting punished?…

Zackie is uberawesum! Thnx for talkin to me! I

This was pasted from the homepage, which was removed and replaced with this message:

Dear Fellow Visitors to the DRNxNetworks Site,

I know most of you come here to find proxies for AIM, or download AIM for that matter. You may even appreciate that I’ve uploaded hundreds of megabytes of music to my site. But that is not what this message is about.

Tonight, I had played a concert. Little did I know that before I returned home, one of the pets that we have had the longest would be killed, attacked by an animal while she was sleeping.

It is to benefit everyone that I will spare you the details.

You are probably wondering what kind of pet it is. It is a chicken. I’ll tell you what. Laugh all you want and whatnot, but I think chickens are some of the best companions ever. Her name was Mama/Pepper. We called her Mama mainly because she was around to help guide all the other hens in the right direction.

Mama can be seen as the only colored chicken (specks) in this image. (c) F. Szczepanski

I know this is sort of rambling, but I guess I should mention this… and I know you may have heard it quite a few times before.

A lot of people complain about their lives; They’re having relationship problems, family problems. The things we omit is that we are healthy. We are alive. We are in a wonderful age of advanced science, and medicine. We can cure things we never could before. We are now somewhat safer in a dangerous world, and there are risks. Yes, risks, but that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t take advantage of what life has to offer to us all, while being cautious at the same time. I hope you all will be a little nicer to one another. After all, how long will they be around–will you be? I’m not here to scare you. Just appreciate life!

At this time (Wow I didn’t realize I forgot about this!) I will take a few moments to mention some people, that are worth mentioning. First and foremost it has got to be Zack Brooks. I know he hasn’t really helped me through this, but he has helped me through problems before, and I am sure he will be there for me in the future as I am there for him. I love him so much and I just want him to know that.

Antonio Armijo, of course, for always talking to me. There will be people that will take advantage of the situation, and of good human nature, such as Charles but Antonio is not that kind of person. He may not admit to it often, but he is a nice person and has a conscience, and from what I can see, a good one. =)

Then there’s Devin Whorton. He still talks to me; A lot of people don’t really talk to me or IM me. We aren’t really close but at least he IMs me every once in a while to say what’s up, and I appreciate that. I’d also like to thank him for talking to me (“even though it wasn’t long”- his words but nonetheless, for talking to me. I appreciate it a lot.

All the other people that think I’m still human and I’m an OK person to talk to, not just because I host their site or just because they have a problem with their computer, or didn’t have ‘anyone else to talk to’ on their buddy list.

Ben Hargrave is a good example of someone who IMs me no matter what, just like Devin– I appreciate it from both of you, and anyone else who IMs me even when they don’t need something. Sadly, there aren’t many people like that. And anyone else who talks to me in person; I know of only a few people that have put up with me since they’ve known me. Aaron Oefinger is a good example. Johnathon Cunningham is an entertaining example… There are many to mention, but thank you, all of you, for being nice to me. I do appreciate it, though most of the time I may not act like it.

So hey, why don’t all of you take the time to IM someone or talk to them and start a friendly conversation randomly? I know I will.

Sincerely,
F. Szczepanski (Host_Fox@hotmail.com)

Thank you all for taking the time to read this. Just remember. You really don’t know how life is going to turn out; You hope for the best, but always live for the best.

I was thinking what people would appreciate after reading this message. I have set up a public proxy that anyone can access. You may find it here: [removed for server accuracy] (Please use this link on the homepage and do not redistribute a direct link. Will work until Friday of this week.)

I think this is the only way, right now, that I can just tell everyone to freely express themselves.

I don’t really know why it was horrid. Maybe it was because I didn’t really talk to Zackie or Antonio, since they’re the only two people I really talk to–the only people who bother calling me, and one’s even long distance!

Well, I didn’t feel good physically either. My nose has been running; I’ve been feeling cold and hot at the same time, my head was hurting… Too much stuff; So much that even you might start feeling sick. Regardless, I don’t know. My weekend lacked something.

I do not have cable internet anymore. I have dial-up, so don’t expect many site updates anymore. I can barely browse the internet at one page every 30-60 seconds.

I guess that is all for tonight. I love you Zackie!! mucho! all that good stuff and whatnot. I hope everyone has a great night/day, whenever you see this.

I feel sick, naseous. Didn’t really talk to Zack much today. Ummm Mom’s pissed off at me. I have no cable internet. I’m fine. I think.

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