edward fox's reality

I’m going to try and start working on my book thing… [word doc with the outline of it]

IM me if you’re interested in seeing how I’m doing I guess… have fun!

Over the last few days, I’ve tried putting up with people, and frankly, I don’t think they want me. Unfortunately, I think I’m getting back into the groove of being lame and rejected by most of the people in society… but it’s OK. My grades will appreciate it… There was some downtime with the server, mainly because I felt as if I shouldn’t have it up, but it is back up now, so whatever.

I feel like throwing up– be nice if this sickness went away.

I have way too much work to get done tonight, and it will frankly NOT get done tonight. It’ll be done in time for the class, though (hopefully)…. At least there are 24 hours in a day and not 20… but then we’d be in darkness when we woke up for all day every 5 Days or so. Heh.

Count on TRANCE to make you emotional *update*
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Scan – Heaven’s Gate – [Radio Mix - 140 BPM] by BF98

Short, but nice. It’s rare times like this that I wish I had someone that appreciated me =) It’s really important to note that I am not depressed– just pressurized. Heh.

I faked the date on this. I really did write it on Thursday.

TODAY IS WEDNESDAY! I am at Nimitz/Olive Garden (spent $19.82– a record outta the whole Orch group / Irving HS at competition for UIL shizit! I will see you all later.

I don’t know if it was that productive, but overall, it was a day with very few problems, and a smooth ending, except for the fact that my US History teacher (only AP Class here!) forgot that I took the test last Friday because I wasn’t here on the original day and didn’t grade my quiz either and I ended up with a 53. Fortunately, changes are able to still be made today as well, so if your teacher said “it’s too late to change your grades”… it isn’t.

I’m hoping to get work done on a project for APUSHIST and speech as well. Both involve speeches (imagine that).

On the person4l note:
People that I used to be able to put up with just fine are just really irritating the crap out of me, and the people I thought I wouldn’t get along with, well, they’re not so bad anymore. I think I’m going to have to stop talking to certain people. And also, my teacher(s) is (are) really having problems teaching. One teacher said to another student (not me I promise) “What do I look like, your slave or something?” [for legal reasons, this may not be the exact quote], after asking to see her grades!. Another (me) went to the teacher and was told that I should just be able to ask other students to see if I missed something, and not be able to talk to him. Isn’t that convenient?

I hope you all have a nice night… That header’s starting to irritate me. G’bye!

Once I’m old enough I’ll go, but until then… http://www.wintermusicconference.com.

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Anyway, I wish I could’ve gone there this year… paul oakenfold and Dj Tiesto were in the m1xx… lot more info on that site. I’m sure if you do a google search you’ll get even more results! Have a great day everyone

Hmm. Apparently it refreshes and the text changes…

When I went to it, it said “Free McDonalds Hamburgers!” “Claim your $50 in Free Burgers Now!”

So retarted.

Anyway, I am currently off-campus modifying this so if you’re looking at this, congratulations. I think I’m going to add some sort of texture for the background of the table, or maybe just outside the table… We will see!

Oh the joys of cooking… while you’re angry???

My mom got SO PO’d when I erased all the numbers from the phone’s Caller ID DataBase (DB)! She went crazy! Even though I have a database of over 140+ numbers since November…

So then she cooked something too long, then fire was spurting out of our Oven everywhere, the side wall was scorched, some paint peeled off, and there’s a black spot on it. Then she blames it on me, because I splashed water and I ‘made a mess’… Right!

Anyway, today wasn’t too bad. I exercised a little, but being overweight irritates me a lot

Soon to come, I’m going to start rating these entries as either TV-G PG etc… Later now

I was sort of worried of how this thing would treat blogs once I got enough of them… I knew the script was simple so I was expecting it to put all 1,000 of them (no I don’t have that many… yet) on one page. Apparently it spreads them onto different pages (10 on each), so that should help the server load… not like I’m concerned about it anyway, though. Hah!

Is that possible? Yes. Is it also possible for AIM to give you a link and no matter what page you’re on it will most certainly kick you off of the current page that you were on? Sure. That’s what just happened, so I guess I will recap.

The point I’m trying to make is… well, I said a comment (quote me if you will) which was along the lines of “People use other people, no matter what. That’s what forms a friendship, and that’s how you help other people. Maybe you’re just using the wrong word.” Maybe I’m just thinking in the wrong way. It’s not like I’m feeling depressed; it’s just sort of an empty feeling (not too empty… but enough to make me feel a bit different) that someone would so quickly do away with you (read between the lines, kids!) and then… not. I really don’t understand it, them, people. Maybe that’s why I don’t really have any ‘friends’. No one really talks to me and I guess that’s OK. I’ve always been used… Maybe I need to use other people. I’ve never really had a habit of using others. I always thought it was something you shouldn’t do, but as I stated earlier, maybe I was misuing the misuse… Heh. Wow, talk about a paradox.

Anyway, I really do like a few people… maybe some more than friends, well, a few more than friends, and I think the reason most people are desperate to have a beyond-friend (and possibly beyond boyfriend-girlfriend?) relationship is that we are all so far apart from each other now… I don’t know what’s going on, but I really do think it has to do with computers… bringing us together? Please. How can something like this which brings so much more evil, confusion, misguidance, possibly be seen as something that brings us together? Ties us together, most certainly… Brings us together… most certainly not.

So I’ve gone off-topic. Sorry. I didn’t get done what I wanted to–no reading of documentation for me. I ended up using AIM way too much, and I really think no one really ENJOYS having a conversation online. It is so much more work to type it all out, and then you normally rethink what you’ve said and once you do say it you can’t bloody take it back. It really isn’t like paper once it’s unleashed unto such a twisted web of wires which we weave infinitely (random intellectual quote?).

Let’s close… I like people. They may like me, but some don’t act like it. Do I find anything wrong with it? Most certainly not! People are the most unusual creatures and mystery and conflict is certainly something to keep a person awake.

Right now I have a few spare minutes to write in this precious weblog. It’s so great I know!

Anyway, I’m going to be working on my book, and in a few hours it’s going to have its own site on my computer in a subfolder… look for it to come soon…

If you want a sneak preview as to what it’s about, IM me!